Knowing The Purpose Of Life

Threat

2012-02-03T09:54:00.001+08:00

This morning , I don't feel like waking up , I wish time pauses at that moment . In that short amount of time , all my childishness and silliness came into place . I wasn't terrified by what I dreamt but thinking in my dream .

Many of you know me as an easy going person , however I'm not easy going after all . Many times I would say I'm fine and I don't seem to pay much attention to it . But I was actually , I just don't feel like telling anyone what's on my mind . This got nothing to do with phobia , is the scenarios and outcomes that you wish did not encounter in life .

I was afraid that I couldn't accept when dreams turn into reality . I was trying to get my head right . I was trying to fix things , finding solutions , creating when there is none . Getting myself prepare , just in case .

Right ! if time would stops for me to get myself right . Then time need to stop for everyone ! Since it's a dream , can't I ask for a little impossible ? After all dreams are made up of impossibles . I wonder what will I do , what will you do . When you see ...

Federal Territory Day

2012-01-31T14:44:00.000+08:00

As morning draws , the clouds are shady , the sun is unseen , a perfect day to conduct outdoor activities . Brushing my teeth , getting dress and followed by taking my breakfast , it's time to head for my destination , Dataran Merdeka .

Even though the exact Fedaral Territory Day is on Feb 1 , the government decided to held the celebration on both saturday & sunday so that citizens with their families are able to not just take part but also to enjoy this experience . I too had never witness such celebration before , together with my group members Arrica & Zi Wen to snap pictures for our assignments .

Taking the usual routine , I arrived half and hour later and waited for the rest at Mc'D . According to source , Our Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak and other representing bodies had up to 8000 members already . This include the government sector , bank , schools and so on . Hence we were expecting a huge crowd .

At sight , flags are hanged all over , there are stations through out the entire areas , the whole road was fully occupied . Next are the marching squats , not just one or two but several. Even though I know not much about what group they are representing , but one thing I know they practice a lot . The teamwork , the effort they put in , the timing of their steps , their strength in carrying heavy instruments , everything is shown in their performances .

Unfortunately we miss the parade which is shown much earlier , luckily for us there are still several events being carried out . Not to mention , there are fireworks at night which we are not able to stayed to witness . We then headed to the sector where most people are gathering . It seem that the there are dance competitions coming right up and there are BMX competition as well .

As teams are signing up , people are drawn towards teams that are warming up , getting used to the stage . The music were pumping real loud , it too play a role for drawing everyone attentions . Then there was the bike competition , where most I would say teenagers are hanging around with their bikes , taking turns to present their skills of the ( ) .

While waiting for competitions to start , the weather is getting scorcher , our hairs are as if on fire . Hence we went to stalls selling food nearby , to get some refreshments . A variety of foods were sold there , and ice creams were our choice after inspecting through all the stalls .

It almost pass 1:00 pm yet neither competitions are starting even though they are suppose to start at 12 . As we thought there are nothing left to be seen , we found a section where arts , creativity , talents are the focus . A showcase of various art works like singing , drawings , handwork are all to be found here . A colourful and inspiring area indeed .

We conclude our work for the day as we finishes this section . Information and pictures are taken , new knowledge had been learnt and experienced . All is left now is to organize and present everything in report to be handed over . And this too is part of it . Thank You .

And since it ended earlier , we reward ourselves by going to the movies at Cap Square , Underworld ~~

Repeated Seasons

2012-01-28T22:34:00.003+08:00

Few years back when we talk about CNY , it's all about visiting , traditions , relatives , foods and so on . Today , despite the modern culture , glad to say that these custom are still widely being seen around the world . CNY is not just about getting red packs , gambling or getting drunk . There are still many options to receive that prosperity of joy . And you would be surprise how simple and easy they are to be obtained .

Its not about how much you won in your gambling , its not about how many packets you received . Food , gatherings , meetings , all these are simple and traditional yet the results are never disappointing . Celebration are when "Love" being expressed , then even without doing much , still you enjoyed and not regretted .

How come its never boring celebrating CNY every year ? Simple . You enjoyed yourself . As we grew older , I think it is more than ourselves that we should think about . Let our maturity be shown by being considerate . It's about time we change our selfish desire when celebrating .

Ask those elderly , what would most make them happy . A simple dinner , a simple reunion , a look at someone , presence of others , the joy of having others around . Not just the joy but also the enjoyment of having everyone around to talk to , to catch up with . After all how many times a year everyone is able to sit down like this ?

Think about those that didn't have the opportunity , those that are less fortunate , those that are away from families . Grab that chance when there are still lives , clocks are ticking , we are ageing . Appreciate that little of what you have , those that are around , whom you grew and learn together .

Another year had started , how is it going to be ? Should there be no change , how many new years do you think you could remain celebrating with the same exact PEOPLE and same exact ATMOSPHERE ...

Happy CNY

EVERYONE

Boarding

2012-01-13T21:02:00.003+08:00

How similar our lives are compare to something we do daily , like taking a train . Everything started from the first station , where you ticket yourselves for a trip . A trip to of a life time ... It's like the moment you step into this world where you first departed from the station you got on .

As the train travels , every stops people enter and leaves the train . Unexpected & surprise you would never knew who would stayed and who would go down at various stations . As we grew older , our interaction with the world made us friends , loves one , families . Many stick and hang around , many too left our lives , yet how many would go down the same station as you or you wish more time to be spent with .

In the train if you are silent & observant enough , you would notice that all sort of people exist , name it and you would see them . Arrogant , quiet , lovable , kind , aggressiveness and many more . There is also those that you wish they won't goes down so early or going down the same as yours . Just like life , we met all sorts of people that made impact upon us . Some make us hate , some make us love , some even changes us . Does all this necessary to take place ? So that the "us" that got into the train would be different from the one that got down .

Do you notice the time consume to reach the next station or your destination ? Yet sometimes it felt as if it was 5 min since you got into the train . Sometimes our attention are caught by the outside or the presence of another person or that enjoyable moment that we are so fascinated about causes us to lost track of time .

Just like life , when we are in a complaining mood , everything seems to have a reason to be complaint . But when we are not , everything turns from foes into friends . We often feel there is nothing in this part of life that you wish to just skip to the next chapter immediately . In our foolishness , everything good had turn into ignorance and neglected . However there are times too that we just enjoy ourselves that we did not realise we had gone that far when looked back .

As station after station pass , the last which is unavoidable is closing . Excited ? Despair ? Regret ? Good Ride ? Everything keep popping in your head , tending the recall what you gone through . Finally the station arrives , the lights went off and the doors are open . The ride was over , passenger have to go down like it or not .

A long way had been through , looking back at the rails you can't even see the previous station . As you are exiting , you see others starting where you start off . And here you are standing at the end . Should you take another ride to where you started ? You may , to help you recall what you missed . But it still doesn't change the fact that this is ..... YOUR DESTINATION .

Rich as in ?

2011-12-30T21:38:00.001+08:00

There are 2 kinds of riches in this world , the unseen & the seen ( material) . Look around you , all you have is what you are . Similiarly What you truly posses is what you truly are .

The media in todays society taught us that unless you are surrounded by luxury , you are consider lower class as in poor . After all the more tha happier .

In what sense they are defining "happier" ? It is because people admired our possessions that we feel we are a block higher than them ? Or happier as in satisfaction in what we have ? Either way , no happiness can be compare with the happiness shown by poor people . The voice of their richness is incomparable to even the finest jewelry .

Satisfaction and richness is like 2 magnets of equal poles . I always like to emphasize on " what we want " . Have any of you ever ask yourselves that is it really "what you want " or " what society wants you to want " unless the striving is personal , goals can never accomplish whether in relationship , money or studies . Seriously , what for you go for something you doesn't want ? It's like you always comapre with the best , it's like the day of winning never near .

However by comparing with yourselves in the past n the presence , improvement is always there . Not to mention satisfaction . What is there to be satisfied if you can't even beat yourselves ?

Everything which is material is perishable , that's why I urge all of you try not to get too attach . What is non-material is eternal , even if you were to forget in your old age . It's still in you , defining you , there is not even the need to tell about its exisntence .

When a person died in a war . Do people remember him for how many badges he have or the bravery he has shown in his life ?

You don't determine what exist in you . Instead it is what exist which determines your existence .

Live through snail

2011-12-27T01:20:00.002+08:00

You see , the world is just so huge . How could it be possible that one person is able to swallow up everything . If that is true then there won't be so many inventors and founders through out history . There won't be the need for so many rulers across the earth , ruler of hearts , spirituals and matter . Everything is just too much to be handle by an individual . Oppositely a person can never handle everything in this world just like a snail could travel the entire world in its lifetime . Bring fort one that know everything in the beginning and the end , I yearn to learnt from Him whom who knows all , nothing that could be hide from this world .

The more I am being knocked the more I realised about how infant like I can be . Sometimes the words we think that we meant , aren't they just words ? Can really what we realises be expresses in simple lines and meaningful words ? Will the true meaning behind , that stronghold deliver in times of need ? Signs can transfer meaning so easily ; words cant ?The truth enlightens and hurts , that's the job of truths .Where is the purpose when we can only understand in our mind but not in our hearts ? Revelation isn't about being tell , I can tell you something a hundred times yet never would you understand of my language .

Encounter is the key to understanding , yet not according to you . It is not part of the plan that you should encounter at first but after . You can say its destiny or fate but with a free will yet we can't control what is planned ahead of us . By not knowing the future and without the strength to control it is a fact and evident which seals us in this contract . Like it or not we are still the one making choices , yet the decision was planned before you became life . Can we really place trust in these uncertainties that rules our lives ? Can the right decision be made through all confusion ? To ensure we don't go wrong and end up in making the same choice again after years , and hopefully make the right one this one .

If you decide not to cross this wall , one day you will surely regret why didn't you done it earlier ...

Stay tuned for updates on gathering with secondary and college friends :D

More To Come

2011-12-19T20:38:00.001+08:00

In a blink of an eye , I had already done 2 semester here in Segi ... Transferring from Taylors and the long 6 months break are just like yesterday to me . Everything that I did and experience are still fresh in my memories . As usual , always learnt something after each semester whether its a subject knowledge , friends or anything in life . There is always a gain as long as you don't put life to waste .

Anyway , only 2 subject taken for this semester (philosophy and public speaking) hence there is only one finals paper for me ~~ That became the reason I'm being hate haha , and I'm super free i guess through out the semester , well sort of . However thanks to the last minute philosophy assignments given during the last week of our semester , that week became the busiest week in the sem . Not to mention I have , IELTS to do on the same week . By the way , I received my results yesterday !! Glad to say that I passed !! Looking forward to all the psychology subjects next sem .

If taking 2 subjects and all the works to be done is tough enough , what about those taking 6 and having their first paper on that weekend . Not to mention , these are first semester college student . It was their first and so much of stress had been felt . Its really physically and mentally tough even just by picturing how they going to do it . But I'm proud that most of them able to get through with it and now enjoying the well deserved semester break . And because of this , the coming semester would definitely be easier since they had gone through the worst . The need of rushing over 100+ pages of assignments added with 2-3 papers on the same week . Wow !! It just amazed me ... and I am speechless .

Had my Public speaking finals 2 days ago , phew finally its over . It wasn't as scary as I thought but no doubt there are no regrets in taking it . Not only the presentations are fun , working with different people , learning from different topic , get to know the types of presentations , it was a fruitful sem . I believe it wasn't just luck or by accident that group the people . Cause it just doesn't make sense how great everything turn out to be , and that bond of friendship . The ideas , the imagination , the teamwork , it just add up covering the word "luck" with its extraordinary results . Glad to say it was a total success for our finals , and I really thankful of all the people I work with through out the semester.

I don't whether what magic is this , whether it is the people or destiny or luck . But this is a story , a story I'm willing to read and go through even I had trouble reading it . Despite all the disaster getting in the way , there will always be that moment where you really enjoy and into the book you are holding . Really learnt and seen a lot in this sem , whether its good or its bad .Glad to know some things , glad to not let know some things . Even if it was intentional , I believe there is a greater purpose behind not by you but by something much greater ... Not for you either, but for me ... For you are just another piece in my life and I'm yours ... And like it or not this apply to everyone ...

Looking forward to what is ahead ... without expectation ...

Video on our public speaking group ... Had problem uploading on facebook ... Hope its nice ...

Unavoidable

2011-12-08T09:32:00.000+08:00

Dead when found , neither breath nor movement ...

Without expectation , we would come to an end ...

When alive , soaring above skies , sparks the eyes ...

Been through places , experiences uncountable ...

Filled with envious are those whom are not ...

So great and prideful ,only when was alive ...

Yet no difference when its dead , just the same ...

Once a ruler you are , now.. limit had been reach ...

Who spoke of the dead , or even show cares ...

Naked we came into this world , naked we should return ...

Material over substance ; Substance over material...

Sights are lock on , yet are blinded by desire ...

Importance merely a name , cheap words from us ...

Knowing what needed to be done , still nothing is done ...

Excuses & Complains won over given opportunity ...

Even for the healthiest and the wealthiest ...

Gather all your meaningless and idols ...

Definitely a time will come with a stop ...

By then even the riches cannot saved ...

Unacceptable & Unwilling but Unavoidable...

Forgiving towards tomorrow

2011-11-21T10:56:00.001+08:00

One of the best cure available to human under all distress yet so little is able to see the benefit in it and refuse to act upon it . Forgiveness is not merely "I Forgive you" that simple , that isn't true forgiveness at all . In fact everything which are done by language itself is incomplete .Life is always full of forgiving and asking for forgiveness . On the other hand , if you are not able to forgive , don't expect others to forgive you either at the worst . By the way , did you know the longer it took to forgive a person , the longer it is for you to bare the pain and hurt ?

Forgiveness is an expression of strength not weakness . Forgiveness is an expression of love that takes the first initiative .However sometimes we are not ready emotionally , and that is what we need to work for ! I will tell you why forgiveness is not just forgiveness ...

Forgiveness is not just apologizing . You acknowledge the problem yet you not hold the responsibility
Forgiveness is not conditional . If you clean up your life , maybe then i will forgive you . Not true !
Forgiveness is not a feeling . Is not whether you feel like doing it or not , its more on whether are you willing ?
Forgiveness is not pretending never happen . You can't act as if something did not happen when it happen !
Forgiveness is not about "forget about it" . That doesn't help and will never help .
Forgiveness is not about teaching someone a lesson . That is not true forgiveness either .
Forgiveness doesn't mean that person is going to change . Is not up to us whether they change but it is up to us whether to forgive or not .
Forgiveness doesn't mean no consequences. Forgive a driver that crashes your car , he still need to face the law .
Last but not least forgiveness dealt effectively with past wounds . If you can forgive now , you can handle conflict and hurt better in the future .

To make sure we apply forgiveness in a proper manner we need to realise as well what is stopping us from doing that .Insecurity , Holding grudge , Jealously , motivated by hate , Fear , Self Pity , Shifting Blames , Pride , Failing to forget , Unworthiness ...

Most of us had taken over by grudge and our thoughts had seal us from the better . Sometimes we are so concern about how a person does not deserve forgiveness and we forgot we ourselves which deserves happiness is being hallowed. At times we are afraid too , from getting hurt again but trust me if you can overcome one you can overcome the next . Our pride had pulled us down more than ever , I'm no wrong ! Sometimes taking initiative is not about backing down but shown as someone who is more appreciative than the other . Yes , you can be angering at another person but don't forget that you are building a wall against yourself !

To be able to forget is a tough task , experiences are not easily fade . But if I may encourage , forgetting doesn't mean completely erased . Forgetting is more like putting it up on a shelf and let it gather dust . Therefore when a similar situation comes you can take a look and remind yourself what to do and what not to do . To forget means no longer controlled by the hurt or desire to get even .

Mastering a forgiving attitude take times but note that it heals everything especially relationship . One problem in us is that we tend to give up after a few tries . Even if we are in the wrong , surely we wish to be forgiven as many times as possible right ? But the problem is we are not willing , if so why must we be forgiven too ? Revenge . It just simply felt good to see a person fail in an area , does that satisfied you now ? Our evil desire wants to cause suffering on others as we had go through .

If ever a person is wrong , let God or dharma or whatever you believe to teach him a lesson . We are not in control in others lives ! At the same time , we are not even handling our lives in a proper manner , how sad is that . Then we cry when others don't forgive us forgetting we ourselves don't forgive others too .

Lastly , the STRENGTH is just not in presence . Notice that most of the important and meaningful lines are short , powerful , yet hardest to spill ? How do we obtain this STRENGTH ? Everything is right above ...

Concealed light

2011-11-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

What a sad world we are living , where our potential and our will are being sealed through our surroundings . Our next thoughts , our next actions are forbidden according to the laws that are not governing the world but made through perceptions of others . Even with a free will , our souls still can't be at peace in doing something we ought to do . Why are we being trapped in these which are not "illegal" even when we know that we are not in the wrong ?

Can't I just spent a little time with my friends to release myself from the chains of college ? said someone . If being pound upon is not suffocated enough , added the people around you agrees with them too . Yes ! especially those people , it hurts when you realise that they are in the opposing side against you . If you are not found guilty , why aren't there any supports ? It is because the power of these perception are too strong that it devour those whom are weak mentally ? Which part had gone wrong ! Me ? You ? Them ? Even the devils being seal for a reason but why am I ? When I just trying to be normal , taking a break in life and continue the tough ahead .

I just want to reach the end point , why are you all stopping me !! I am not even in your path !! Don't you have your own road to take , we are not even sharing our paths !! Why is it so hard just to achieve that little bit of something . But it is so dam easy to make that achieving further and further . Does obtaining something crowns you higher than others that you had gotten the authority to alters lives ? I mean it is good for you if you learnt something out of experience or observation . However can not your perception be forced down on others ? Seriously !! Can you stop interfering , there are limits especially in decisions which only I can made . And I do not want my every decision to be made because of you . Paths intercept but are not to be replaced by other's path .

Do you mind ? Taking a few steps back or if possible please stay away ? I have no hate in you neither does others but you are just dangerous you know . Getting near you means being manipulate and taken over by you . Can't that normality be place between us ? Is it that hard to stop you from ruling over all the minds you are brainwashing ? If only that little space is allow to just breath normally , that would lighten my heart from mourning . You had taken over as if you are the head of all and knows everything yet you can't even tell the sorrow you are causing .

Isn't my life no difference from he or she or even an animal ? I'm just like a puppy living in a conceal box by the road side with no one to open and release me . The worst thing is I know the existence of the world and the people that passes through everyday , every hour , every minute . You are blocking my light ahead of me , and I'm afraid one day when the light is completely blocked . I be lost , blind ... And I don't think your cage will safe me . Don't get me wrong , I'm not complaining , I'm not justifying , I'm not again-sing... I'm just sharing the thoughts of others that I observed ...

I see hopes are being drained out of someone . I see their sorrow . I know because I too undergoes it and so are you . Have the world had changed so much that our life are to be forbid by perceptions of others ? Have that little 'selves" of ours faded and does not comply any more in this century ? I mean have we loses ourselves that we no longer live but surviving by what others want us to be ? I'm not asking you to rebel against everything and do whatever you want .

I'm just saying are your actions , your wants , your knowing , your strives from within you ... Or you are just another puppet following what others are doing ...

10/11/11

2011-11-10T21:18:00.001+08:00

My friends in Segi college threw me and Theresa too, a surprise at Pavilion today . Appreciate them more than ever !!!! Because its almost the end of the semester now and everyone are busy with their assignments and preparing for various presentations . And finals is almost around the corner even I', freaking out !!! So I really really really appreciate what all of you had done ... And not to forgot the big card and the present haha I LOVE IT :D

Seriously you don't need a special date or time to produce something special out of it . All it takes is a bit of passion , determination and willingness , that is more than enough to make something memorable out of it . Simple is best after all . What comes out of a complicated heart ?

Experience is the connector of all , your thoughts , your actions , your predictions , your results , everything . Speak and think and imagining ... Might be real for some , might not be for others ... Its the reality we are living after all ... Some things , it just not something talking or sharing can be express or explain ... It just need that spice of natural in us , that's the ingredient for awesomeness .

If only everyone could choose take out parts of their life they prefer living and get to the end as they wanted . There is just always that "BUT that changes everything or else people would not stuck at that cross road forever . I got nothing to hate in my life i think . But one thing I am sure , I am happy with what I have , and too for what I don't have . I got no idea where I got this faith but I feel this is what I am suppose to do . I am in no control even it's my life I am living , so no point forcing doors . Just let time pass , and everything fall into place .

Memories are countless ,everlasting , twist able therefore it is how you capture and con-seal it that matters . Sometimes when you tried your best in memorizing or forgetting something , note that it is harder to do it than ever . Its because the heart is not involve , everything is willing but the heart isn't . Without heart involve , nothing you do is exactly real . No one knows except ourselves and God what is within our heart , but good for us both the questions and answers are placed side by side in one place .

Once again , Thank you all ... Also all the wishes that I receive ...
Thank you and bless you all abundantly ...
Hereby conclude the day of Nov 10 , my birthday
24:00 Nov 11-2011

First Of November

2011-11-05T00:20:00.001+08:00

Obviously the date is not what I meant in the title . I don't know why but I just adore the month of November . It's a beautiful month , its the month of blossoms to me . It's the month of door opening new dimensions . Maybe because my birthday is in it ? Haha I'm so bias towards november ... Anyway it's Pei Teng birthday today but we celebrated yesterday at Chillis , KLCC .

It's a beauty , really to be able to maintain this friendship after like nearly 2 years ? It's a great moment when you would spent time to hang out with friends you grew up with , especially those times in school where you see them everyday , copying homework , seeing them after the exams , seeing them the first thing in the morning . It is also true nothing is perfect so does everyone here . Everyone is struggling to go on with life and at the same time some are struggling against each other .

No doubt there is fun celebrating and being celebrated . But my concern is those that weren't present , those that didn't got the chance . I don't know what to say , but I felt that fault is my part too . All I do is apologize but I'm sure that doesn't even pass through your hearing . If only time and space allows everything to flow together , but that is which against their law just like fire and water . Yaa i wish i could understand the concept behind such great creations ...

I should stop for here ... Its a beautiful month anyway and long ahead ... We should enjoy that beauty while it last . It's nice even thought it just for sighting for the little while , it worth the memories and impression.

Clear Channels

2011-10-30T19:55:00.004+08:00

When 2 comes together , they bring their own background , cultures , lifestyle & their own uniqueness together . The only way to connect them is through communication . Agree ? Lacking of communication is the inability to speak honestly which leads to confusion & conflict .

The principle of communication is to "give or interchange thoughts , feelings , information or the likes by writing or speaking " said a writer . True sharing of yourself involve talking , listening & understanding within communication .

Surely we are given 2 ears & 1 mouth for a reason . That is to hear twice as much ad you speak . Pretending to listen when you are not is one of the worst you could do . Listening shows that you care , you take things seriously & value their opinions . You would never realize how simple it is to be a listener . That is a speaker only request . Is hearing such a hard task to carry out ?

One can listen for details or facts for own quotes but show no care.
One can listen out of sympathy but that is pity but not caring .
One can listen with gossiping ad useful talk is no caring at all !!
One can listen with profesional habits ; without care it's helpless .
One can listen out of curiosity , the caring is more to widen those eyes .
And you can listen with ready first aid , supports or understanding . But it may still not be helpful .

Caring is about accurate attention , genuine empathy , willingness to stand with each other in stress , willingness to see others as they are & a commitment to be truly helpful when needed most . These are the elements which you need , one is not to be cut short .

Talk !! How do you interact when there is only one person doing all the talking or even worst none . Expecting others to know whats in your mind in plain stupidity !! Do you want caring or sympathy ? If you think being silent is able to get you attention, then what will talking leads you to ? Once again you would never know !!! Especially those little details that doesn't mean much to you is all the other person wanted to hear . These are what needed to know what's inside a person & how it can affects them .

Ever silence is never a solution !! Still you can be a loving person , a good listener but you can still be not caring . And that is the cause that most people have today . Not caring ....

Sophist Love

2011-10-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

The Night is still young , plenty are the remains out there

I refuse to seek slumber yet , for the day is not sufficient

I'm still in hunger for more , come & heal my misery

For I know nothing but with willingness in your calling

Come , fill me as I'm still awake , when my heart is still burning

In your preaching , You strike me , sparkles my eyes

It's the truth but not truth of all truth because truth don't lie

I grasp totally but unexplainable to others , that is missing

I felt completely , nothing is left , no words to describe

If only they escape their blindness , nothing hides from them

Let the judges do the judgement , we are not qualified

For our actions our conscious , but our actions may not conscious

Even with wisdom of all earth , shadows still live hidden from us .

Journey at Tokyo Street

2011-10-22T10:12:00.001+08:00

Streets of Tokyo

Another day for us to hang out due to class cancel , this time with more people ... The more the merrier after all , had another enjoyable time of life ...

Sometimes I wonder ... Is this the definition of happiness ? If by heart you can do much better than by thoughts ... Then this isn't exactly what true happiness is ... This is a reflection of the happiness you tried to obtain ...So this is not true ? Then there must be something which is much better than what is is now ? But what is it ?

Extraordinary

2011-10-18T02:33:00.003+08:00

It been quite some time since I started blogging . I had talked about all sort of things up to now, some might be reveal to you some might not . Yes there are some sad post so there are some happy post too to even things up .The road had been very tricky for me to walk with all the twist and turn . But if you ask me whether I'm sad in my life ? No is my answer .

Why , U ask ? I am happy with sad , I can tell you this . You don't understand ? You are still not ready to accept some things in your life . Sometimes I think that I'm lost . I don't really know what I want in my life . I am not certain with the things I do . I can't make up certain decision sometimes . But one thing I'm sure of is I'm not Lost .

Why , U ask ? Take a look at my life , and you will get what I meant . You don't get it ? You are still far from knowing my identity . One good evidence that I'm not lost is that no matter where I end up , I always adapt to the people , the surrounding there . Is this possible when at lost ? If so , misery would be your company . I guess I am in my walk towards destiny . Even if the future is untold , at least I know that I'm on the right track .

Destiny ? You believe such things ? I'm not exactly a believer of it but I am certain that there is a certain uniqueness in everyone . If everyone have difference path to walk , then each person have their own destiny . That is how I relate them . After all , how can 2 person travel the same path .

I'm travelling , so are you from one place to another . Just like when you are travelling , you wants to see the speciality of a place . The same goes for life . If you can't see that special in this area of life , would you want to leave it and continue ? Maybe it's before your very eye but you denial in seeing something much better had blinded you . Some special might be at places where you least expected , that is why the entire place should be your search .

Uniqueness is not what you want to see , but what you truly see behind every ordinary ...

More than an event

2011-10-17T01:54:00.002+08:00

What an experience , another enjoyable day to be accounted in my life and my blog and also my heart . It was my first time signing up as a volunteer , didn't know it was this fun . Too bad I miss the shift which is on 2 a.m. haha . I always wonder how things are behind the scene in these events , finally i got the chance to be part of it , new things and friends to know . Somehow i had trouble writing these type of post in my blog , words can't seem to be falling in place . Maybe it was just plain laziness or something else . Anyway let the pictures to impress you as I go along ...

Pics before the event starts , the place was all empty except was filled with volunteer like us . All Orange . At Dataran Merdeka . A good venue especially for kids which are taking part , at least the floor is less hurtful when you fall .

Booths and tents and stages filling the field of Dataran . Kids are cycling all over . It can be said that the event was a success but not really professional . There are plenty areas to be improve however that's not the point . The joy of watching at those kids and their family enjoying themselves and cycling today really meant something to me . I never attend these type of events with my families when I was young .

I had decided that if I have children in the future , I would definitely bring them to these events . Not to win but to have a happy childhood , something you can still remember when you are grown up . Looking at those cyclist that participate , young , all below 12 and decide to participate in this event . It does not just show that they had taken up sports in such young age but also constantly spending time with their families . And fall while cycling and not cried ? wow that amazed me a lot !!

I was a cry baby when I was young , I cried over every little things . Over pampered I guess . Some pictures we take through out the course of the day . Not very nice but its more than enough to involve your mind and trigger them . And there goes the entire day , another piece of puzzle in completing my life puzzle .A huge puzzle with one piece at a time with only you can complete , reflecting on your life . Hopefully I'm able to finish the puzzle up to my old age .Even if I'm given the opportunity to finish it now , I'm not interested .

For the long run is what I strive , the short run are just what made out of it

What's the point of enjoying one thing in your life that you are willing to stop the time and not discover greater happiness that is to come . Even if life doesn't give you that taste , isn't much sweeter to think back on your reflection of your life . Rather than sticking to that happiness for the rest of your life .

A little update

2011-10-12T20:43:00.002+08:00

It been awhile since my last update about my college life . Yup , life is Awesome as always .

Good to hear that my ADP friends in US are doing well , enjoying the stress and assignments .

Taking 2 subject only this semester public speaking and philosophy , I love them both .

Really learnt a lot from just these 2 subjects . The semester isn't as relaxing as it suppose to be .

Will be having my IELTS test at the end of the year , paying RM570 for the test is horrifying .

Having speech finals around that time too , more like theatre finals to me .

Oh ya , I'll be volunteering for OCBC bike event this sat , plenty of gifts to take home !!!

Time sure flies faster than ever , its the month of October already , 2 more months and its 2012 .

Public speaking class was cancelled last minute today , I was suppose to do presentation today T.T .And I was wearing formal , didn't went home after being informed . Instead went out with friends that I made in Segi . This is also the first outing , at time square . Didn't really do much but as long as the time is enjoyable , Who Caress about the time ~~ First time having Share Tea , its the name of the place by the way . Nice !!! Then took some random pictures along the way :)

Race Relation

2011-10-06T16:07:00.001+08:00

Look at the people around you , at your work place , at college , at school , at the park , they are in the form of various races . When we talk about race , it is not just about the skin tone that matters but also gender , status , occupation and other factors which gives you a second thought when making a friend . Is this how you categorized the people around you ? Rich people , poor people , highly educated , lowlife ...

One of the most famous issue were the blacks and whites America . The whites called themselves as the higher rank whereas they look down towards the black people . Even nowadays there are still issues similar in marriage which they only allows interracial marriage . Does the colour of a person need to be an excuse when choosing a friend ? Like in college , isn't it awesome to be in a class full of people from different background and culture with all the discussion and conversation ? Rather than grouping yourself from others

So does being the CEO make you someone special ? Yes in a way but don't forget you are human as well , other than your occupation difference , you would still died just like anyone on the streets .You can't really argued completely that it was your hard work that is who you are today .However , don't forget background plays a role too . You judged a person just because she is a pregnant teen ? Do you even know what life she go through ?What do you other than your negative comments and thoughts ...

A father is a status , a student is a status as well . The same goes for someone with psychological illness or someone whom is sick . Having a positive and healthy status is fine with us but what about negative status ? Does we categorize people a little lower than human being ? or the same level as animals ? Just because a person have AIDS doesn't mean he or she should be neglected from the society . And just because a girl loses her father , it doesn't mean she deserve a nickname for it . If someone's sickness is incurable , they get no help , no support just because we are scare ?

Should we be looking down on people ? Should we be proud of ourselves knowing that what we did ? Are the society in the right to categorize people based on these ? In fact we should be the one to be categorize as heartless and inhumane . One way or another when we take away all our characteristic , our difference , we are all the same human being , creation of God .

Speech presentation topic , 12 Sep
Stay tuned :)

Appreciation

2011-09-21T02:32:00.001+08:00

Is simply what the world lacks , it is the stone that constraint us from happiness ...
Most of us would only see the world in 2 , happy & sad ...
I'm happy , I got what I want , I am satisfied with whatever comes into my life...
I'm sad , I'm being treated unfairly compare to others , bad luck is my companion ...
In life there are just so many thing to either hurt or satisfied us ...Friendship, Love, Family, Peace, Food , Desires , Dreams ...But is Life merely for the sake of own satisfaction ? What about others ?

Surely there is a purpose , there are more people which are more unfortunate or happier than us .Some people are satisfied as long as they are with their love one even though having plain rice and potatoes everyday . Poverty stand no chance against their joyfulness . We complain that our homes
are small , homework too many . Some people never mumble over living in a place made of cupboard . And , if you come across someone with passion for knowledge , you would look down on yourself . Yet we are chasing the latest , using the best , doing the finest and complaining the most .

Its hard dealing with family , friendship , love . You curse your parents whenever they forbid you to do something . Those whom lost theirs had not even mourn yet , not to mention blaming them . Being betrayed or fooled and anger lead you to feel like killing someone . You have not experience the loneliness in one being neglected and rejected from their surrounding . Unsolved mystery in a relationship making you feel like
and its hurtful . You had not tasted what its like seeing someone you love dying .

How many actually thank the waiter serving the food before satisfying our hunger ?
How many actually thank for what they have than complaining what they don't have ?
Our life is just too much of ourselves . Pain strikes and all the attention have to be on us .
Without notice our sad causes another sad , our joy causes another happy .In our sadness knowing that we would not be comforted , at least no burden those whom we come across . We could bring happiness to another, well at least rather than having 2 sad faces . Isn't it better to have one less sad and one more happier ? At least when we start appreciating , we get much closer to happiness , staying away from sadness

Ending With Starting With Ending

2011-09-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

A boy came from a village , with happiness there's existence ...
Sadly there is none love , seeing only hatred into the mirror ...
Recognizing through the world , leaving something everywhere...
First as last meeting change the course of life , never again ...
Pondering upon thoughts of the knowing , even not close ...
Never fail fall upon starting , never fail learnt from them ...
There is no importance , there is something more important...
Better than being surrounded and mocked then isolated ...
Incident that shatter dreams , scar that can't be shadow...
Realization of many truths , bringing light with purpose to life ...
A total change in view , that everything is included ...
Puzzles are solved , mindset had change it direction ...
Even though tried , but never enough ,never serious ...
Nothing comes into 100% , for will aren't strong to hold ...
From many to numbered , there is only one to choose ...
Decision were tough to make , but never to made...
Deeper into the new world , closer to the other ...
Falling of pieces all over , but still on the same floor ...
With new beginning new hopes new choices new peoples ...
Fate does show the way , not one but many took part ...
Riding through a roller coaster , but still safe arriving ...
All knowledge are open , with keys door are chosen...
With every end comes awaited joy , first is always first...
In sadness there are no tears , that word presence dissolved ...
A new encounter like never before , as dead are raised ....
From all beginnings come a new beginning , where all are good...
Past are blown off , footprints are washed off , memories stays ...
Through acceptance , let it rain , falls just like the usual ...
Incomplete dreams yet to slept , book is still to finish ...
Ahead as the option with steady phase and required stops ...

Nothing Like Before

2011-08-30T00:55:00.002+08:00

What a year , filled with footprints leaving behind ...

However , they are more than just prints that are left behind ...

What privilege , what more can I ask of ...

Other than spending time with this bunch of awesome people ...

These are those special moments that you heard of ...

These are those unexplainable that you don't understand ...

Those suppose are absent , whereas those not are there to fill their place ...

Smiles can be deceiving , but definitely not these ...

These are those that put everything aside ...

Everything but enjoy the moment like nothing before ...

These are blessings ,

These are those to be remembered ...

These are to be enjoy and cherish ...

These are those that are meant to be appreciate

Last picture of the day ....

Nothing comes from Nothing

2011-08-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

The Most Ingenious Toy in the World
Why would I say so , had you seen the size of a block ? Had you seen what builds out of a Lego block ? Even though they are all different , you'll never going to have any hardship putting them together . Not just they are unbreakable , anything can be constructed out of them . It just simply magic as if buildings are made out of sands .

Similarly to life , everything starts from the smallest substance . You may think that what does this gotta do with your plan , but it will all make sense as you start putting pieces together . As you finished , you will realise how important that trash is . Your Foundation , your Base . Its Connects , it bring all the pieces together , without it nothing above ever take place , neither will you be admiring your achievement now . Every tiny piece brings their own story with meaning . Might not be now , or later but will never be hide of you as you are the builder . Just like when you are establishing , you might had the ideals in your mind as you works towards it ... You found that you lacks of pieces , it came out does not match your imagination . You modified it , you get and swap from others even just that one piece . It might be sad and not wanting to part but .... you are looking at the bigger picture after all , its unavoidable . You will never regret these choices made through out your course , eventually you see how things fit in just right ...

Of course we always said why mourned over such a small thing , surely most of us realise how much that one thing actually worth ... Memories never goes away , even if its does it always return once in awhile . But what can be done , it just doesn't fit in to what you are building , it just ... not suppose to be there . We have choices , but will we really give up the entire project over a piece ... Will a constructor give up the entire business just because the base is not firm ? Surely I know how it feels too , but we just can't have every piece be put into used . Even though you force it , it just won't synchronizes leading to getting it off from the top down until the point where it is . Starting over where things go wrong , it sucks ... I hate it that feeling as well . Why would I want to tear down everything and rebuild once again ...It even breaks my heart when I came to realise I don't have much time left for my building ... Every big piece comes from small piece, different but we given the authority to place them .If we don't know where are we , how are we to go on ...

Some Things just need the right person and the right piece to be build ... Good thing there are those that are willing to help and mentor through your way ... Picking up what you dropped and left out ... Helping you in making right choices . Lastly, time as your witness of that long journey of yours ... Admiring what you had build and remembering how you get through those days ... at the end of the day ...

Philosophy HW1

2011-08-25T12:35:00.000+08:00

Life is never easy , its true . At the same time life is never too difficult . What makes me said this ? Some of the factors that influence our minds that life is never easy are our own opinions and our surroundings .

Life is definitely never easy for those who have something to strive for , dreams . I want a big car , huge bungalow , a highly paid job , happy family , friends that are always there etc . Because we have so many goals and expectations that it overtaken our life . Hence when things does not meet your requirement , you feel depress, you feel disappointed , you feel being cheated off . For example when I asked what is most important in your life ? Surely more than 8 out of 10 would say still searching for it . Whereas 2 might say relationship or something else . But in my opinion what is important is what is around us , that is always here all this while .

The fact that we are always influence by our environment people around us , it makes us jealous of others . It drives us to become better than them , eventually we are blinded by what we want to see . Hence we didn’t take notice of our surroundings all these while , and only when we lose them we start to regret over it . This is also why so many people realize what is important to them after losing them , wishing time would go backwards .

At the end of the day we could argue that for those who said life is easy are just their opinions , they know nothing about life . Well there is no wrong in that statement , but it also apply for those who said life is never easy . That’s how we always think that nobody understand our life . Actually that’s the beauty of life that everyone is different from each other . Each person has their own story to tell when it comes to this topic . Because of these we become more grateful of our life , more independent , more trusting , more determine in things of our life , after listening to these stories .

Hopefully i am not called to present my work >.<

Heart To Be Heard

2011-07-31T20:55:00.001+08:00

How much do we understand ourselves , can we fully grasp it and to understand others too?

Hidden and cover in sight we are , but without doubt each heart knows it own bitterness ...

Often we question and tried to understand , but no one can share its joy at moments ...

Even in laughter the heart may ache, but who to burdened with ...Not to mention who sees it?

Even the joyful moment grief , but who notice its disappearance for its prints were washed away ...

A cheerful heart is a good medicine , while a crushed spirit dries up a person bone ...

At times even the strongest can be the weakest , so does the happiest as the saddest ...

Many are our feelings , but God knows it all ...

How often do we make plans and how often does it flows accordingly ...

Many are the plans in our heart , each created to overcome emotions and scenarios ...

An uncertain and hush decision brings suffering , falling into pit darkness to be panic ...

Joyful it is when the water flows down stream , for everyone gains from it even those unrelated

Does it end here ? Fortunately and unfortunately it is that it is connected as a long chain ahead

A strong and never break chain , all the same but no one knows for sure what comes next ...

Uncertainty combining with fear with no stops , decisions belong to all ...

Even the saddest undergoes turn around , just like from a couple into a nation ...

The slightest wind blows happiness away , wither like a flower without care ...

Many are the plans in our heart , but God determine its steps...

"OUR" run

2011-07-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday , I took part in the charity event "Jog For Hope" . While I was running something came up to my mind , I kept thinking all along the way until the finish line . Yet I'm still uncertain of the true answer behind it . As we are running , why is it that we always fix on being the first to arrive ? Why is it that we fought hard avoiding ourselves of shame from being the last . Does the result of position wins over getting involve in the race ? As I am closing in the finishing line , I find myself speeding up , catching up those ahead ,ensuring there is others behind me .Knowing time is limited , journey is short , we put everything we have on the line .

From the very moment we started walking , we had already taken part in the race . Everything before this was merely a warm up section .If we set our eyes so keen on the finishing line , how would we ever notice the journey towards it . Imagine you got first and others celebrated with you after the race . Not long after that , crowds began to disperse and you notice everyone started talking about something you aren't aware of through out the run . You felt left out , people asked whether you had seen it too . Nothing came out of your mouths , ending up being isolated from the group . Somehow your achievement became not even worth mentioning about compare to a dog feeding her puppy . You then wanted to go back the route taken and see for yourselves , but obviously you knew its long gone by now .

What can you do , ask for a rerun ? React the scenes ? This time you tried to pay more attention towards your surrounding ? I'm afraid its too late by now , the race it over . What done is done , what gain is gain , what loss is loss , everyone is heading home already . Think about it if you were part of those that saw the scene , you would have the experience to share about too . Where as the one whom arrives first knew nothing . It kept me wondering all day , disrupting my mood of studying for tomorrows exam . What exactly is our purpose of running ? Does winning matters most , isn't that's what race is all about ? Or it is just me , a loser thoughts to cover up my shame that I wasn't as good as first place and I took notice of something special along the run .

Intercultural Exhibition

2011-07-17T20:01:00.002+08:00

Starring Mr Tharmaraj - Lecturer of the Subject

Performances

Countries Taken Part :

Egypt , Malaysia , Japan , Korea , Nepal , United Kingdom , India , Greek , Mexico

Egyptians

Japanese

Malaysians

Nepal's

Koreans

Greeks

United Kingdom

Punjabi

Mexicans

Some of the new friends I made here :)

Life is just great whenever you move to a new environment and you started meeting people you never seen before in the past . Learning new things , seeing from different perspective ... Back then and now , I wish I could said I completely enjoyed and overcome it all despite ups and downs . Its OK , that's how life should be , that's how we are strengthen .However if I am able to control , I prefer not to change when things start to became stable , its hard building that wall . Any yet to leave it and build another ...

Crash

2011-07-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

What do others see in us , do they see like what we see in ourselves ?
Do they see what we don't see in our reflection ?
What do we see in others , do we see what they see in themselves ?
Do we notice our own reflection or the opposite as we see ?
But are what we see as what we see , how high will your trust be .

Why is it that hard for us to understand others ? Why won't we understand ?
Are we foolish or are they masters in disguise ? Will time make adjustment ?
Why is it that hard for others to understand us ? Will they ever understand ?
Are they foolish or are we kept locked ? Will time make adjustment ?
Will complete understanding ever happens ? Or it is just another dream .

Our desire , our wants , does it really rise from the depths of our hearts ?
Or are we streams of flowing water , with uncertainty we questioned ourselves .
Other's desire , their wants , does it really rise from the depths of our hearts ?
Or are they just followers of majority , just like what we had in our minds .
Search deeply for we will be fooled but NEVER in what lies beneath .

We are moving in the speed of light
We are bound to collide with each other
But sometimes we don't get that touch
I think we miss that touch so much
that we crash into each other
Just so we could feel that touch .
Crash 2004

Church weekend activities

2011-06-20T23:19:00.001+08:00

Despite rushing a long case study assignment , quite daring enough to skip the weekend doing others stuffs . At least by now I already finish them , 20% relieve when the are still a few not to be done . However never mind ~ the due date is still a few more weeks , still can slack a bit hahaha .

At Sat joined Petra Youth for their groups sports activity , badminton and basketball . More 3/4 of the day was spent on this zzz . Got out at 1 something , participate in some workshops and group activities once there . It was quite a fun topic , "FINDING EMO" talking about why are we being emo nowadays . Later on , got separated into groups and discuss on various scenarios based on our age . After it was over , group representative from each groups came out and give their answers . I notice that the older you are the less you are being bother about things . Oppositely , the younger you are the more you care for something . When all is over , went to played our sports nearby Cheras . Had an enjoyable time , spending time with people , tightening up bonds , sharing laughter and pain . It was good and worthy .

As usual every sunday morning going to church , and its father's day today too !! I kinda in charge of giving out presents to all the fathers in church today , however my father didn't went with us . He got into an argument with mum in the morning before we left so he decided not to come . It was ok , I don't mind plus I not use to giving families present anyway . After finishes church , went straight to pudu looking for U-ton plant . Its a plant ate to cure cancer and its quite effective I heard . So managed to brought it and going to pass it to someone at night . During the night , it was parents night dinner in church . For the first time I spent my money for the entire family unfortunately my dad did not turn up . Never mind , I'm not angry , I'm used to it already anyway . And it will be so awkward if I go up stage and said some speech about my parents .

At least once we got home , my mum apologize to my dad so everything turn out good after all haha . I was so tired already that I slept immediately knowing today I need to finish those assignments -.- . After finishing assignments and passes through the day , here I am reaching the end of this post . Oh ya I left out something on sat night , after sports we went out to eat together all OF US !!!! For the first time I ate in such a huge group , larger than my college friends , larger than my high school class . My high school dinner was 28of us so you guys guess how many wahahaha ~

Around and Felt by Us

2011-06-08T01:29:00.001+08:00

Quakes Of Life
It strikes when you are least expecting it ,
You fall the moment you are hit by it ,
Trying to stand firm and seek shelter , but unavoidable
Withstand is the only way , hoping it goes away
Still , wounds are left behind that heals through time .

Once and now Wind
Your mood is unpredictable , you arose without cause
That chilling and calmness of yours , why won't it last longer ?
No matter how perfect you can be , never once you maintain it
If only you could be the centre of best and worst , its sufficient
You just hit and run like a hurricane and unseen after ?

Lone Snow Pit
People talks about you , people enjoyed what you bring them
They share all their happy moments together , thanks to you
You were special to some , its something you hardly see in life
But why ? Why are you trapping me alone here ?
Will someone stretched out their hands and found me in this pit ?

Little Downpour
Wash away the sadness but not the happiness ,
Cherish is brought with you , not reveal unless it shines
When you are not in need , your presence are plain dull
You make my day sometimes , you cheer me up when I'm down
The more there is of you , I realise you are not that worth of trust

Tale Of Blaze
You are always ahead of me , seen in everywhere I go
That is why I set my eyes on you , you are my guidance
At times I hate you , Go Away ! You are never considerate
When I'm lost , you are nowhere to be found . What is this !
Not everyone can be like you , for some you are merely fairytale ...

Forgotten Happiness

2011-06-06T12:51:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went back to home town after church . It been awhile seen I met my grandmother and aunties , it was a great time . However when we are about to leave , they gave us plenty of stuff for us to take home . It just came to me that we not just bring nothing to them instead we were taking away things from them . We are like robbers coming and reaping everything off , I was raised by them after all when I was young . When I was young my parents often travels a lot leaving me staying with my relatives .

Often we show 0 concern towards our surroundings , drown by our own dreams and high hopes . We were blind to realise that there were anything else around , we were too into our fairyland . On the other hand , how much we hope times leap so that hardship may perish . We were so focused on getting out of our pit that we didn't saw there were ropes beside us all this time .

Everyone wishes they could start over again once they fall , that includes me as well . Sometimes I do think that way , some other times I felt grateful for being put through all these . It make me stronger , wiser , I became more experience thanks to them . Back then I always wish that time could be under my command , reverse when I snap my fingers and snap again it flew past the pain times .

Sometimes if life is going too fast for you , feel free to stop and relax and enjoyed everything . By the time you realise , you would have not enough time to enjoyed it all . Nevertheless if life is pounding toughly on you , control it , disallowing it to affects both mental and physical of yours . Sometimes there just no need for rush in our life . If things are getting slow , maybe GOD wants make you realises something , maybe you left out an important puzzle in your life .

Everyone is destined to their own path . And every path is well planned and balanced by GOD . If you are bound to something , you will eventually met in times to come . Just like wondering the earth , you will finish at where you started .

Re-Chapter

2011-05-23T21:29:00.015+08:00

~Brand New Flight ~

I'd finally resume back to my college life , in a whole new experience . It been awhile since I got up this early therefore having abit difficulty in the morning . I can't believe 5 months just passed while I was thinking back then please fast forward . Now I sort of miss it without no reason, hahaha :) .

Today was my second college orientation , first in Segi College . I also found out I'm not the only one that suffers doing nothing in the past 5 months . My new life is ... is in a brand new environment , still improving but I got no whining . I don't really have any complains about it ,so I guess everything is cool right now . The only not cool part only allowed to register for 2 subject and subject offered are abit too little for short sem :( .

However , its ok ... A slow start pumping to a steady phase , I don't need to rush . It was a small orientation , about 40 students joining only this sem . Its the short sem anyway . Made some new friends already and should try to get along more with everyone as time passes . The students are abit quieter compare to Taylors but the American Degree Program can be seen burning in them .So ... It was a OK day !!!! Looking Forward to Coming days ~

BLOSSOM !!!!

2011-05-15T00:28:00.013+08:00

From the moment we arrived in this world , everything were merely a piece of empty land
From the moment we inhaled our first breathed , we started planting seeds of our land ...
Every moment we involve ourselves with something , we are watering the planted seeds ...
Every moment we push ourselves a little harder , we are fertilising the planted seeds ...
Each time we showed signs of love towards it , we don't want to see it lose away ...
Each time we showed sadness towards it , it shows the importance of one in a million ...

When a plant wither , do you stop everything you are doing on the field ?
When a plant wither , do all plants stop growing while the withered one grows back ?
When a plant wither , did we lost everything ? Knowing its one in a million ?
When a plant wither , do you remained it there ? Or you removed it ?
When a plant wither , do you felt nothing at all ? Even its one in a million ?

Can everything be unharmed ?
Can everything be unchanged ?
Can everything be long lasting ?
Can everything be preserved ?
Can everything be yours forever ?

You know , I hate my field as well ...I often didn't get what I striving for ... But what can be done other than trying to improve it ... Its true sometimes it faces hardship like the scorching sun and large hurricane but not everything is destroyed ... How many times I repeated what I started ... Sometimes I don't even feel like continuing , I wish I could leave all behind and went somewhere else ... Unfortunately , it is impossible !!! Everyone got their own property to look after ... Who in this world is so magnificent that he could play two roles in life ...

At the end ,
Despite the hardships ,
Despite the wounded ,
Despite the destroyed ,
Despite the lost ,
Despite the unfruitful ,

With a heart of determination ,
IT WILL BLOSSOM !!!! With everything you worked for ... In Life

To everyone in my life ... I hoped you all like it ...

Learnt Cycling

2011-05-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

Been 19 years and I never knew how to cycle until that day ...
Big thanks to everyone that was presence at there...
Pei Teng , Yee Jien , Shirley , Yi Ru , Nick , Elaine , Deren ...
Simple day but something I will have a hard time forgetting ...

Specially thanks to Yee Jien and Her Mom for preparing foods ^^

Iphone captured

What a hot day and we still went cycling on that day

It turn out to be 39 degrees that day afterwards

Does a Title Needed ?

2011-05-06T23:35:00.001+08:00

DAYS DOESN'T MATTER

PLACE DOESN'T MATTER

HOW MANY DOESN'S MATTER

SOMETHING NEW , AND REPEATING

ISN'T THE SAME AS ALWAYS

HOW OFTEN EVERYONE ATTRACTED TO ONE SHOW

TIME WAS'NT EFFICIENT BACK THEN

HISTORY WONT BE KNOWN WITHOUT EVIDENCE

EMOTION COMES FROM THOSE THAT CAME ACROSS

IT BEEN AWHILE SINCE THE LAST TIME

OLD TIMES ; NEW TIMES , STILL LOVE IT

HARDSHIP ARE NOTHING WHEN UNITED

HOLDING ON EACH OTHER SIDE BY SIDE

EXPERIENCE DOESN'T EXIST WITHOUT FIRST TRY

IMPROVEMENT COMES AFTER

TALES OF A THOUSAND

WHAT MAKES IT SPECIAL

NEVER TRY , NEVER KNEW

AS TIME FADES , WILL IT LAST ?

EVEN CRYSTAL ARE BLOWN INTO PIECES

TINY PIECE OF THEM PROOF THEY WERE ONCE AS ONE

THAT'S HOW PUZZLE ARE INVENTED

DOES A PICTURE TELLS EVERYTHING

IF SO , WHAT ABOUT MEMORIES THAT RAISES FROM IT

DOES A PICTURE CAPTURE EVERYTHING

IF SO , WILL THE HAPPINESS NOT BE CAUGHT

AND THE SADNESS BE IMPRISON FOREVER

Nightmare

2011-05-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

Had one of the saddest dream I ever had . Everyone of I knew was against me , Siew Mee , Sarah , Yee Jien , Deren , Donna and somehow Mr.Das . I never seen Donna so angry before . I never seen Deren so hate someone before . I never seen Siew Mee got this evil before . And I never seen Jien this sad either . How much I wish I would stop dreaming but no matter how , I just can't awake from this sleep . Everything around me is full of gloominess . And my studies ... they are the worst of the worst !! Every class got scold by lecturer , exams never ever got one question correct . And whatever I studied , I just don't understand anything ... Wherever I walked everyone just gave me that creepy stare ... My college friends were just witnessing from across , not even one laid a help ... I'm starting college next month and now this dream come haunting me ... I'm afraid of starting college now ... I hope none of these ever come true ... NOT EVEN ONE

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2011-04-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

It been so long already , at last my holidays are coming to an end . Hopefully i will be able to return to college soon , if everything run through smoothly . I sort of got discourage of continuing my studies , the "thing" just isn't there . This long term unexpected holidays sure got me into realising a plenty full of issues in my life . Had to admit back then I thought I knew a lot , but now I felt ashamed of even had such wondrous . Back then my knowledge were just merely shallow thoughts compare to today , and today it is not even comparable to what the world holds .

One doesn't realise how serious their situation are until they face it .

One also doesn't learn to appreciate until they lost it .

And surely one doesn't learn if they dare not confront their problems .

Sometimes I saw some people posting about wanting to quit studies , praying hard there will be no homework . I kinda got angry a little and felt like replying something but I hold back...................because...................

They know nothing at all !

A lot had I lost in these times , my inspiration , my interest , my studies ...

even while blogging , hardly nothing come to mind . While editing pictures , nothing unique seems to come out . I felt like a candle which is running out of light ........ SOON !

One thing which I afraid losing is my WILL , because will is everything there is ....

In my opinion every beginning starts with ones will power , even to believe . When you are told about something , you have a choice whether to believe or to not . If you chose not to believe , nothing advances from there on . Even when you have a crush on someone , you get to choose whether to make a move to express your feelings or just stayed down watching the time ticks . When you decide to lose weight , temptation comes but what causes you to fall ? Your will of wanting to eat .

Without a starting point there is no ending to what is to come . Whether we make a decision or not , if all up to us decide despite being in hard times ... Where are you to complain ? Surely not you are the only one which face hard times , others too ... some worse ... be thoughtful .

Survival Genesis 2010

2011-04-04T01:09:00.004+08:00

It was a Saturday morning , I got up way earlier compare to usual . I got up at 5.30 despite going out at 7 am . I was going to played basketball with one of my primary school friends brother and of course his friends . It been quite awhile since I played sports with others so I was a bit over excited . In fact I couldn't even make myself asleep last night . They came from an average church , they have their own basketball team and been into tournaments before . I never thought that a church would have their very own basketball team , plus they even had coach guiding them .

It was fun playing and training with them . They were nice and very welcoming . After we finish at around 11:30 we headed back to church . It lies somewhere around Tmn Cheras Baru , a factory rented for a church . It wasn't huge and its wasn't small either . Then later on we had youth , worshipping , and today they happen to have a play . Basically they are acting out chapters from the Book of Job from the bible . It was nice , everything was sum up in plays of 10-15 minutes .

I was notified that today they having a youth program called the "Survival" . I asked for further detailed about it , and they replied me " All you need to do is survived " . Nope much tips but it sure sounds fun , regretted I didn't bring anyone with me . We were brought to a large field , basically everything been set up already by then . The youth consist of more than 100 teenagers that took part in it . Everyone were separated into 4 groups just like back then in high school . And ! Surprisingly I was back to Mark House again zzz . Typically just like back then , LOL .

However which groups doesn't matter , the most important was teamwork with a bunch of people that you don't even know . The whole thing was basically cut into three main games with at the last a bonus round . First there was matching of cards with our team mate from a far with mouth tapped . Another was going through obstacles and passing it to your next member while transferring cups of water . Basically the team with the most water collected is the winner . Last was the one I was assigned to played . We were given 2 bamboos stick and a ball of strings . With 7 members our task were to build a ... what you call those that emergencies medical used to carried patients ... you guys know what I'm trying to say right ? haha . And then raced to carried 5 person back to the finish line . Of course they won't just let you go through that easily . By running through the fields they splashes with flour and then with water .

The results was .... Instant hair gel zz . After all was finish , there came the bonus round with only one will be winner . And that winner will get to change their placing by one . All team were lining up in one straight line and we were to pass a big bag of ice shoulder by shoulder for 8 times across the field . Added if the bag broke open , consider immediate loss . We were able to beat the other teams with victory , with it we moved from No.3 to No.2 . And this round up the first part of Survival Genesis . There will 2 mores to come , and the winner will be determined with the most wins .

Maybe the next one I'll bring my friends to experience this moment . The day was tiring , even though I summarized into quite short but it took almost the entire day . I got so tired that I felt asleep as soon as I got into the car . In fact I continue sleeping after reaching home . Of course I washed my hair first -.- .

Another or Again

2011-03-31T01:14:00.001+08:00

Was it the same night ? Are things repeating again ? Another sleepless night it is , but this time it sort of different . My head were filled with plenty of questions which leads to more and more . I was on chat with 2 friends that night , both came in at different time into my life . And they had me question all over . Was I in a state of confuse ? I certainly don't think so . Or ... could it be that I heard things that I never wish it was true ? In fact I don't even understand what I was told , I wish I could ask someone to tell me . It's just wish ... I made them a promise that it would not to flew out from me and promise it is it will be kept . But... I don't know .... I think I'm kinda hurt in the inside . It can't be help , it ain't bringing me anywhere .But if I let it out , I might not get my sleep tonight . My eyes were hurting eager for some rest , but my mentally doesn't allow that to happen . I was sitting on my bed , hugging one of my pillows .... Thinking ...

Sea of Fallen

2011-03-20T06:59:00.001+08:00

At times the feeling of loneliness comes to hunt .
It as if you are being rob , but not those that are touchable .
Instead those that can't be seen nor touch , leaving you in complete emptiness .
When all are gone , negative energy begins to build up and take controls over those empty spaces.
In no time , we realise that we are trapped in a cloak of darkness , nothing positive left .
Everything which is the opposite strikes at you , you tried to fought , unfortunately the battle was not on your side Everything you threw , you are counter back with double of it .
There was merely no hope left .

When we lost , we loses our identity and we couldn't even recognize our own-self anymore .
That's when a savior is needed , to help us in search of what was lost and belongs to you
Glad to say that we don't need to search for them , just look around ...
They are all around you , ALL THIS TIME !!
And they are the ones which you can count on to help reclaim your lost soul .
At the same time , it also put them to the test how much they know about you over the years .
Or are they foe or allies ... Talk to them , spent time with them , do all you could to discover your identity .

However not everyone of them lead you closer to what you are searching for .
Luckily some knew where they are , that's when you found out who are really those that really understand and cares about you ; those that know not much about you .
Also , sadly , those that don't even care about you , those that didn't even bother at all .
As the more you ask the closer you get to your destination .

You never knew or appreciate what you are given until you lost it or someone highlighted it in your life .
The reason i didn't use ( I ) for my this post is because i think that this is something that all of us faced or will face throughout our life . How we get back , all depends on how we deal with it .

Knot

2011-02-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

Form from two corner of the earth ,

Two strings that ties, and a story was told ,

A knot that lies everything ,

Everything you hold on to in life ,

Are all here , not one is left behind .

Many ties are seen as reflected into us ,

Just like our life , combined of all ,

Efforts , Hopes , Money , Time ,

As long as it is promise , all are put into it ,

All into one , that is what it is .

Neither strong nor soft , give up never ,

It may seem tough on the outside ,

However soft it is , in the inside ,

As time passes , it never last the same ,

Some gave up , some stayed strong .

Love , friendship , studies , families ....

All , that you never let go of ,

Cherish it before all are lost ,

Secure it before all are snap ,

Do so , before all turns into regret.

Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-08T01:26:00.003+08:00

Enjoyed my previous year celebration , but this its even more awesome than last year !

More houses , more people , more pictures , and most of all more RED PACKET !

Everyone been studying hard lately , definitely a briliant idea to call it a break by having a gathering of friends . Started by everyone gather at Jien's house ... Followed by visiting Pauline's house , Khhai Munn's house and later Pei Teng house for lion dance . Had our lunch after , can't belive we actually had the same meal as we did last year ... SUBWAY ! Except last year was 6 at subway while others at Sakae , however this year all 17 stormed subway haha . After that , finally everyone got the chance to visit my house , got seperate along the way zz . Next hang around at Phyllis house for some rest and others , have a quick stop through Deren's house . Get lou san from a random restaurant and heads to our last destination , Estee's house . Also the house that we stayed and enjoyed the longest !

18 PEOPLES , 6 CARS , AND 9 HOUSES ! An unforgetable CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

Pei Teng's house ( tallest one )

Phy's "AWESOME" Mac book

Taking through Iphone4

Be4 Alya left~

Lou San ( Be4) , aFter ( couldnt take if u know what i mean)

Corridoors~

After singing , still singing =D

One Life , Two Approach

2011-02-02T02:11:00.001+08:00

It been quite awhile since i stopped education . Now living in a life which is totally opposite from the one I used to live before . No more schooling , homeworks , hanging around with friends , having meals with them . It been almost a month I repel myself against all . Everyday woke up and spent all day doing what is similiar to yesterday and the day after . Sometimes I just randomly find friends to talk with to kill time . A totally difference life unlike the busy life i used to had , now how much i wish the lecturer would give me an assignment to do . How much I wish i that the whole gang can have lunch together after class . But nothing can be help . It was never the same anymore ...

At last I realise how precious those moments were back then . I began to realise lots of things now , especially those times when i just wish it would just pass in a blink of an eye . Maybe now is the best time to train myself , to learn what I miss out back then . Now I am both regret and joyful .

Regret For The Past ...
Joy For What Learnt ...

Life is never stopping on learning and experiencing . Our existence can be as huge as the skies , but what we can do or what we meant to do ? Are like the stars around galaxies . Some are Far , Some are Near , Some can never be reach , Some are where we started . Hopping from stars to stars sounds easy to pronounce but when you actually tried to hop , You will soon realises ....

Hopefully when i return , I would be a better person than before . I am grateful for what I had lost for such gain ...

One year , STILL AWESOME

2011-01-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

After one year of each heading their own path , its totally awesome to see most of us spent time to meet up . Can be said as our class one year anniversary since SPM . Xing Huang First Time Cooking since he came back from his course , well not exactly his first but his first cooking like this ... Of course there are more but these are those that manage to take pics of , others got swept as soon as it came out , LOL

It been quite awhile since the previous gathering , not just college but high school as well . Its great to all gather and get a little bit of update once in awhile . Not to mention enjoyed all the fun like we used to have back then .

Some are leaving the country soon , some finished their foundation year , stpm already . Its great to heard that everyone is doing fine . There are also some that aren't doing that well , they will do better .

Ok ! The gathering was on Sat but the guys decided to celebrate it earlier on friday . So we all gather , played some sports with Seng's brother and his friends . Then we enjoyed our dinner at pasar malam , no the mamak beside the pasar malam zzz . At night i slept at 9 , as usual but got woken by monkeys at 1 am . Couldn't sleep anymore till 5 , chit chat with Jason on MSN .

The Main event Day had finally arrived !! We went to the market to get our ingredients , while the other half still couldn't woke up . Until we had our breakfast , done with all the groceries only they woke up . While they were going out to had breakfast , we already started preparing food . A lot of preparation were needed BUT the problem is those guys took 3 hours just to have breakfast -.- . Leaving behind the 3 of us doing most of the work .

Fast forward !!!! Evening are closing and guest are arriving one after another . Some arrived quite early to help things out , half way of cooking realise some ingredients not enough . Drove out 3 times , each time buy only one zzz Triple work ...

Some were seriously helping out , some were seriously eating food , some were just plain kacau only -.-

There was so much of fun we had , just like back then ... Everyday all the crazy stuft we did in class , LOL some were completely stupid -.-

At last most of the food finaly served , and most of the guest had arrived . Started eating as soon as the plate hits the table , well didnt took long for them to empty .

Later on , its all on individuals mode ... Everyone happy , sitting around chit chatting , enjoying the food , a good surrounding to be at ...

Clueless

2011-01-06T23:26:00.006+08:00

One night .... I was sleepless while at the same time I could be said half conscious . A war was occurring , in my head , between the done and the undone . A battles of thoughts were on the role , past memories are being flashback . I kinda ... miss those days , in fact I do !

Even though it may sound childish but I wish i could turn back time . Even a trip back and return would be appreciated . Clearly i know that life is about forwarding of a destine path . Its about overcoming mistakes , challenges , and all sorts of things throw at you . However ... why to return ?

When there is nothing is in concern . Being thought carefully , nothing much had change since the past . Some not even caught the attention , nevertheless feel the impact of it . Still , there are still changes occurs when comparison applied , even though its could be small . Sometimes these are those that changes our life time decisions . Come to think of it , i felt myself drastically decline since the last time .

Crystals were shatter , chesses were leaving the battle one after another . Am i playing a game of lost ? If so , time are consuming , turns are minimizing . Believe is I that holds own destiny , whether to accept or away depends on our decisions . Every board are play by their own players and no one were to swap their positions . Provided are those that given , rest are yours to play . Your chess are color and no way you can take others because one can only control one life . Honestly speaking , back then i do play better . Now its like every move eats me up .

Will I be drowned in this sea of dissapoinment , half had been taken . Where can I go when its the ocean I'm at ? It couldnt get any worst when darkness are ruling your surroundings . Lying in the middle of the ocean of nowhere surrounded by this thick mist ?

Whats there to be done !!! When are outcomes tried were nothing but fail , would you swim forward ?

Seeing nothing ahead of you , unable to predict whats infront , taken up all behind , options are lesser , ticking are fast forwarding ....

What now ....

How much i wish there was a shooting star ...

Chapter 3 End

2010-12-16T14:21:00.003+08:00

Wow so many semesters had passed , and soon the year is done . I can't believe how fast time passes this year , its the fastest i ever felt , in fact i don't even realise it was almost Christmas already . Spm was like last month , first day of college was like last week , yesterday was like the end of first semester , and last hour was like my return from Kuantan only . Those memories are still fresh on top ...

What a year !!! Not only fastest but also holds some of the most memorable events in life . Finishes high school , first day of college , meeting with new peoples , the feeling of forming a gang of friends and so much more . It was a short year though , actually more stuff could have been done and be fulfilled but i miss those opportunity . Also been through a lot in this year , getting to know myself deeper , deciding which path to take , a year full of tough decision making but its almost over . Not to mention , realising the truths about somethings , knowing the true meaning of friendship , whats being important in life . I enjoy the procedure that help me to get to know more of these . Especially the first step ..

First time celebrate so many friends birthday in a year , i guess almost the entire gang birthday was celebrated . Every celebration came with all sort of surprises and gifts . And all the fun and surprises moments all of been through , luckily most of them are capture in frames that be remember forever~
Once captured , forever remains ...

Get to know a whole bunch of crazy peoples this year , and its awesome we became close friends in such a short year . The minutes and hours we all spent together was always feel with laughter and joy . And we always have our meals with everyone sometimes it can be as many as 15+ , sometimes it as little as 3 or below . A whole new environment with a whole bunch of weird people together haha .

The year was so busy that i lost track of time most of the time . Somehow i felt nothing much had been done even though all the pressure is on . But never mind , those that couldn't accomplish this year will be sent off next year ! I am excited towards the days ahead , at the same time counting down the remains of ticking ...

A short post ...

Happy Holidays ALL

Merry Christmas to ALL

Amazing Race

2010-11-12T22:56:00.071+08:00

TAYLORS ADP DAY

What a successfully day it is for the economic groups to run our very own Amazing Race . There were 10 groups and 8-9 members are in each groups . Each groups are to come out with a challenge with economics principle base . Half of the group were to host at our booth while the other half went to complete challenges from other groups . Therefore Shalee , MeiTeng , Michelle , Ji chuan incharge of our booth giving instruction ogranizing the games . While Me , Yee Sheng , Nickcholas , Yu full went around up and down . It sounded kindda not attractive at first but it turn out to be way better than I expected .

Gather at our booth at 4 pm , we set up our place , cutting celephonetape , arranging sticks , and so on . 4:30 sharp , the race officially begins !!!! With the given map , we 4 rush towards our first challenge . I dont really recognize any of the people from their group zzz . Their challenge was at a given amount of time , for every correct answer we will get rm1 coupon . After that we were to pick to pick a card out of 8 and with the given ingredient , we need to build that picture on the card we drew . We got the picture KITE !!! and thats where our $$ come in use . We were to buy those like paper , pens and etc with the $$$ we earn . Wasnt really hard to clear the challenge , we finish it in 5 min while we were given 15 min to complete . hehe

Next was the " Sweet or Bitter " . And we got all BITTER !!! We were to hit the ballons , black stand for coffee , red is salt , green is sugar . We got 2 tries , throwing dart onto the ballons . And by which color we hit ~ we will have to drink that !!!! It doesnt end here , after throwing the dart we gotta throw another dice . And the number will determine how many table spoons of that color we will be drinking . And we got 2 times black which mean coffee and i mean really pure coffee , bitter . We threw one 6 and one 5 while add up to 11 spoons of pure coffee powder with COLD water . So four of us need to finish it to clear the stage , the experience was .....

The coming challenge was just nearby , when we got there Ian and his group is playing . It was blackjack !!! with real casino chips and Melvin is the banker . To get into there first we need walk through a simple maze , lol it was pretty straight forward anyway . Then they were playing , they got quite bad luck loosing till few chips left . And they were counting on what to do , quite serious need to do calculations somemore . On the other hand Melvin was like getting 20 , 21 only dam fake zzz . After wating for like 7-8 mins , its finally our turn . We need 25 chips to exchange them for economic quiz , each of us were given 5 chips . Well doesnt really take us long to get 25 , i got one full house in the first round , Yu full got blackjack on the sec round , and Nick as well the following round . So it was like 2 mins and we got the quiz and manage to finish it fast .

We were slighty ahead of schedule , it was estimated we will reach this booth at 5.30 but by 4:50 were there already , ^^ . Okkk the challenge was we were to throw tennis ball on cans , those cans were to determine the toughness of question we will be getting ltr . The question with the easiest starts from top and as it get lower the question becomes harder . We got 3 tries and amazingly we miss all 3 of them =.=" . So we got the hardest question !!! One full page economic essay and questions behind !!!! We couldnt do the quiz so we got no choice but to accept penatly . Putting ice into our shirts , easy ~ . Okay NEXT !!!

It was Jie Ying groups and the moment we reach there . The first thing we saw were water guns , pail of water , cups of water ... ALL WATER !!!! Then we were like i think we will be getting some splash . Firstly all 4 of us were to do skipping ropes 10 times and after that for each full cup of water we drank we will be given a question . If we got it correct we will earn ourselve the chance to splash water on them instead , however if we got wrong we will be the one getting splash . So at the count of 3 , each of us drank a cup so we answered those question . And we got all of them CORRECT !!! Then hahahaha , all get some cups and splash on them . Woo!!! what a relieve , completing that without getting wet .

One of the reason we dont want to get wet was the upcoming challenge was named "Flournomix" , so the name FLOUR . When water mix with flour so the upcoming will be pretty shock , lol !! . We had our challenge at the top most of our building , we were to blew few bowls of flour without using our hand . Some bowl contains numbers which lead to question we will be taking while some consists of nothing . So all 4 of us were to blew flour ~ Ok now we got the question , with each correct answer we got a code , with wrong we also got a code . The code was basically our reward and our punishment . I got a mixture of orange and Syrup , they said mine was the best haha . Nick got soya with lychee , Ys got cucumber with i forgot , and Yu Full i also forgot . But we got most of the reward because we manage to answer correctly .

We got few more to go and its the finish line . Now it was Deldry and Winny Groups , theirs was snake and ladder . So 2 of us me and nick play as chess , ys as the dice roller , and Yu full as the actor . So starting with Ys throwing the dice , for each number we land we will be given a question . If wrong we gotta move backwards 3 steps , and once we got to 15 above there will be question from acting . Thats for Yu full is for , he was to act out the term he drew from and we were to guess them . Once we arrive at 30 we counted as clearing the stage . It was quite fun and it can be seen that they put in alot of effort preparing all the stuft . The dice , the slides with question , the floor , the stickers , everything . They even have background music and air cond so it was quite enjoying while doing theirs .

Ok second last already , Yeah !!! We arrived at " The One " , there was a long tables and alot of envelope with numbers labeled was place on it . After briefing , we realise it was the " Deal or No Deal " , it was fun we choose one as our safe case then we start opening envelopes . It was pretty realistic , there was banker calling giving offers , the tension is there . And it came down to 2 envelope , the there was 100,000 and 1,000,000 . The bank offered was 500,000 something . We decided to deal and take the offer andddd when we open our safe .... guess what was inside ? $1,000,000 !!!!!!!! What a waste hahaha but it was a 50 50 percent chance , either u get 100k or you get 1 mil . We thought of not being so greedy ~

Alright finally last challenge !!!!! By the time we got there , we were ahead of scheduled time by 1 hour + . Stomarch starting feeling weird d cause of the coffee just now , Lol . We gotta like wait half and hour due to a emergency meeting with all the groups leader and all challenges were to pause for the time being . So we sat down and talk there . After they had finish , we got to our last challenge . The last team took 15 min fully to finish the whole thing , and they said the question was pretty tricky . There were 3 sections of question , MCQ , subjective , clearing maze . And for each question we clear we will get one mark and we need to earn like total 10 mark . But we dont just get to do them that easy , we first need to score goals with football . For each goal we will get a try on a question , sometimes its a trap and sometimes if u got the wrong answer for the first try you gotta go back and kick somemore . I score 6 myself , and got 6 scores for our team including doing chicken dance and duck walk for 20 sec . Yu full and Nick was doing the 5 marks maze and Ys choosing Mcq . Total when we were done we got 12 marks so stage clear !!!!

Finally we clear all stages !!!! If i am not wrong we were the first team to finish all and we were still 1 hour ahead of time hahaha . So we went back to our booth and rest it is for all of us after the few hours . It was filled with funs , those that took charge of the booth should have take turns doing the challenge as well . As it was one of a experience we dont usually go through in our normal days . Still in the end of the day it was a success , not to forget we will be given marks on how we complete everything . Also a report must be submit by each group from your what is it call again ? By the time everything finish it was around 8 , first time finish college so late hahaha . Great day , wonderfull ideas , one of those you never forget in your college life .

Wake up

2010-11-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

In this world we are living ....

How do we differentiate those that are real and those that aren't ?

Often we got confuse between fantasy and reality ... But are we living in one of them or either or perhaps neither ? We can assume that sometimes we may heard when we weren't called . So does that mean we can also assume that what we see does not really show us what the world truly is ? Does everything we see exist base on how our eyes reflect on them ? Or could it be something else ? Is what we see merely an illusion from the synapse process through our brains ? Would you believe that everything in this world first started with just sparkles of electrons ? Everything born from the tiniest protons and electrons , and slowly develop into the world today we are staying .

What happens next when something you believe at suddenly was given facts by others that it doesn't exist .... ... It never exist .... All these years of placing faiths , trust , believe on something that doesn't even belong to our world , something that only exist in ones fantasy ... What would be the life of them after this , would everything in their life shattered . Could your life still goes on ... after losing your guidance of life ? Knowing that there is only one straight road ahead , but don't know whether to go on or to stop and make a U-turn .

When we realises that we are on the wrong side of the world , whats next ? Do you plan to continue staying or its time to return to where you belong ? Or you got yourself so carried away to the point that you are certain of anything you does . What if when you realises and you managed to turn back before its too late BUT only figure out that you merely move a step yet . You thought you gotten through it , but actually it was just an illusion you thought you had overcome it . Perhaps that's how your way of solving problems , you keep saying to yourself you had success therefore your minds follow what you wants and show you what you want to see . Leaving those that you do not want to see deep in the shadows of reality .

Final Bet

2010-10-29T23:54:00.001+08:00

Just like the rolling of a dice , not knowing exactly what will be the outcome ...

Placing my final hope on this last throw , it all comes down to one last ...

Only able to minimize the possible outcome but with no confident of which will be chosen

All i am capable of doing now is wait for it ...

Bring it on !!!

Either way the outcome will still be my final dicision , no more thoughts ...

No more hestitation , no more arguements , no more doubts ...

One throw , One Outcome , One Decison

Motivation

2010-10-10T22:42:00.001+08:00

It could be as simple as a word when being said ...

But when being tested , it could be the life making decision ...
That could change your life , especially those that happens once in a lifetime ...
Once you miss it , it is gone foreverrrr ...
With no turning back , except the feeling of regret you would have chose the other path ...

That is why it is hard to make choices , because you know you got only ONE SHOT !
Things usually don't goes as smooth as you always expected it to be ...
You can always get pound at during times when you are least expecting it ...
Just after you think you solve the puzzles , you come to another junction ...
Knowing that the previous was just a clue to your next move ....
Which it may cause you to turned back , that it obviously meant to throw at you ...

Every steps , every moment we been through our life are important ...
Because they are what you are today , you are shape through whatever you been through ...
Sometimes we just keep looking forward ... that we forgot to notice what it is around us ...
After we pass it , only we realise that we just miss a stop back there ...
Could you go back ? Can you make up for what you have done ?
Would you choose to move forward ? Or stays and rest abit ?
At least try to recover the wounds and cuts you had cause ...

Sometimes with just only the goal itself , things wont goes as you planned ...
Without motivation , the determination to go further ahead , soaring to greater heights ...
Whats the use of having that goal ? Won't you rather not having one instead ?
Having a goal but don't have the motivation to presuade ? Sadd as it seems ...

Ya i know ... i understand ... i felt the same way too ...
Because it is the same of what i am going through ...

THIS IS LIFE AFTER ALL ... NOTHING COMES FREELY ....

Relieved

2010-09-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

Wee finaly a big relieve after a exhausted week , it been a fully packed week ... Lots and lots of work since the begining of this semester . The worst is yet to come ... But at least get to rest for the mean while ...

Started of with preparing a song for biology class . Our topic was "Chroplast" , need to make a song with it function and structure for it . Every groups had their own topic ... Added with got selected as group leader . Come to think of it all the subject i took i was a group leader except for economics but it doesnt really meant anything .Phew managed to hold a few meetings and written out the lyrics and able to match quite well with the chorus of our chosen song . On that day itself the presensation was sucessfull , so were the rest . Everyone did pretty awesome in such a short time .

Next was preparing for 3 papers in one day , and with less than a week to finish my revision . Luckily me , managed to confienced calculus lecterur to postpone to monday or tuesday . Remaining left Econs and Bio , eventhough it is just a quiz but every marks counts . I think i did quite ok for both , i guess it was no problem . After so many days of burning the midnight oil , at least there should be some reward right ?

One more test to go on moday then can relax abit more before the upcoming projects . But eventhough the tireness and the hardwork , i like it ... When you put effort into something the feeling and the outcome would always be difference . Come to think of it ... i think ... i juz realise ... i got bio lab report havnet finish yet =.=

Katrina will be killing me ...
Yawn ~~ Tired ~~

Defined

2010-09-19T14:39:00.002+08:00

You name might sound solid but that it is not as it sounds , you are just like anyone else ...
Just like the 4 seasons of the world that take turns ...

You are like a huge umbrella sheltering those you care for ...
But no matter how big it is , it will never be enough ...

You are what you think you are , of what you really hope to achieve ...
Strive for it with No Doubt ...

You are similiar to your given name ...
Upshine everything that is dime around ...

You are the connection to functions ...
One mistake , you might bring disaster ...

You asked what type of person are you ...
This is what of defined You , in my opinion ...

Everyone always unique in their own ways ... and i mean EVERYONE !!!

Haha first time posting in this way , hope u guys get what i m trying to meant . Give some comments of what you guys think k ^^

Beyond

2010-09-05T18:37:00.004+08:00

They are not strangers to you , you know who they all but what you don't know is whether what they are to you . You could treat someone as if he or she is the king and you got badly used . You can treat someone as the only one you can turn up to but actually everything is going as planned . You could tell he or she all your troubles but they are going in here and sharing it all over without you noticing . Some of them are those that grew up together , those that head to the same education house , those that you think you could really trust , those that you think you are their friend ...

Maybe there is no such thing as one staying as him or herself forever . At the moment you think you knows that person very well , suddenly another appears , something that you never expected , never knew , totally surprise of .

Among all , you came in last . The years of sitting beside each other , i finally realise the other side of you . When i realise , i wonder myself were you forcing yourself all these time . I know you are always unhappy since childhood . Also you don't have to place all the blames to yourself . Sometimes i do wonder whether whatever dialogue we had were just fake talks ...

Haha , you are someone i really admire , really envy of everything about and around you . I will never achieved whatever you had achieved . You know i felt really bad for doubting you all the time ... I thought sometimes you were there but you ignore me all the time ... At least these gave me the courage to go up to you and ask for truth . I think too much i guess , hahaha ...

Its been months since we knew each other , you are the first among them i make friends with . And thanks to you , through you i am able to meet with them . I still remember the first time u brought me to meet them , wen jun and crystal was talking about channels . Don't worry , you are awesome , everything will come to you ... In the mean time , be patient ... Oh ya , i thought u were those serious and quiet type . Hahaha gladly to say lucky that is not true .

Among them , you are the one i don't understand the most . After two semester , i am sad that each time we talk , it is like the first time we meet each other . Talking to someone that you knew for almost half a year and more really makes me feel .... Other than surface conversation and sometimes assignments , it seems there are no other topics left for us . But maybe that is a good thing after all ...

You are perhaps the one among us that tied the whole spiral . Caring about others and always making sure everyone is happy . The world needs more people like you ... Unfortunately not everyone is born with this talent . Appreciately , use it well for those around you . Sometimes the time isn't right yet , it is not your station yet .

Surprises

2010-08-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

~Best Of Kelvin 3/4 of 2010~

Well not exactly best , there are more hidden ones hehe . Everyone are turning 18 one after another and this year i realise how much a celebration meant for the one that is having his or her birthday especially when things come in SURPRISE . Celebration that will never be forgotten for those that involve in it ...

It started of with shopping at beside the superr market next to Subang Parade , to be precise its Carrefour . Brought all the stuff for tonight big event at Nicholas Place . Got like man tou , balls ( chicken not human) , sausages , sotongs , cheap prawn ( got 3 expensive one ) , ALOT VEGE !!! and so so on ...

After a long long travel from the North of Selangor until the South of Kuala Lumpur had take us like ages to reach Nicholas house . The location wasn't the one i had in my mind , but who cares his house is HUGEEE !!! Why am i the only one living in condos among my friends T.T . There was pull table , Foosball , KTV room , huge backyard ...

After finish with all the discovering around , we all started preparing for tonight BBQ with all the ingredients we brought . Everyone did their part :

Aaron ~Slicing potatoes , aluminum potatoes

Jun & Sis ~Pealing prawn scales , preparing salad , washing squid

Christine ~Cutting cincau , cutting vege

Suit Yee ~Washing vege , filling cheese

Zi Cheun ~Boiled potatoes and eggs , prepare egg salad

Kelvin ~Preparing jelly , making Dorry fish

Timothy ~Brought charcoal back with Nick , start the fire

Nicholas ~Letting us know where is what we want , driving to buy

charcoal

Katrina ~Applied butter on man tou ( her favourite)

Y.J ~Cutting vege and cincau , poured hot water , set up fire

Crystal ~Other than doing all the eating job , i didn't saw her do

anything actually -.-

I didn't know how long we took to finish all the preparation before we start barbecuing but i know we keep delaying it because we wanted to take group pictures but everyone justdoing their own stuff . At last some pictures are taken ...

Each time we take group pictures , it always getting better and better , and the numbers are always increasing

I am glad i am with these bunch of people i can call Friends , what makes them unique ? Everything !!!

Compare to other gangs birthday celebration , at least we don't celebrate in clubs or drinking beer as a way . I dont mean my high school friends here k =.= . I mean there is like no special moments in doing those that is worth enjoying of ... Hopefully we never will have such ...

After finish taking pictures , finally it is time for us to start ! Not eating , we still need to cook them first haha . This is my first time barbecue so many types of food at the same time , also the first time using more than one what you call those again ?? Those where you put the charcoal underneath .

Phew now i am seriously full by now , ate alot !!! No , more than alot !!! Mostly finish their meal sitting around chatting ... Relaxing and enjoying ... Of course we do helped out in cleaning the place as well , the whole place is quite messy , food everywhere !!!!

The day isn't over yet after the meal ... after taking turns bathing actually don't even need to take turns ... more than enough toilets for us to use . Round 2 but not eating anymore , now is entertainment time . Enjoying the fun singing in KTV . BUTTTT before that , don't forget our main reason !!! While Kelvin was bathing , we all quickly prepare his present , lighting up candles , offing the lights . And SURPRISE !!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN !!!!! Finally turn 18 , hope that you enjoy what we prepare for you .

The night goes on until at least 3 am !!! Through half way i was nearly fall asleep , lucky got some performance make me can't fall asleep ... Then playing some games outside after tiring of singing , and then back to singing again . I don't sing by the way -.- . Y.J and Christine got home earlier so they both couldn't stayed but for Crystal Helmet Show , is like she celebration her birthday . Coming along with ghost movie , watch half way couldn't watch , added with cacat subtitle make the whole movie even hard to understand . Serious those that convert meanings , dunno whether they went to school arnot ... where got people grammar can cacat until this type of standard zzz .

Well that is pretty much what we did in just THAT ONE DAY . I think i left out somethings but i don't want over specific , some " people " complain my post sound like diary . The long planned event went on smoothly than anyone could ever expect ... it was awesome , seriously we should do these for every ones birthday .

The clock is ticking ... ... How long will it last ...
Chapter is finishing ... ... Wonder whats next ...
Either leaving ... ... Or staying FOREVER ...

Kelvin just in case you did decode the message ,

Fate connects Destiny
Destiny brings Friendship
Friendship gave moments
Moments gathers memories
Memories leaves LEGACY

Ever Long Lasting ~

Wonder

2010-08-26T02:04:00.000+08:00

It was a quiet night , everyone sleep already ... the surroundings was so silent that the only sound i heard is typing of words . As soon as i got back from college today , i fall asleep untill 7 something and now i am so energetic . It is almost 2 by now , either than refreshing facebook , reading others blog , listening to music there was not much to do . I read back my old posts , starting from the very first when i first make my blog with the help of alya and phyllis .

Alot of post already since then , now at least every week i had a post . Maybe too much happenings in my life or too many nonsense to blog about . As i was reading through my previous posts , i realises that last time the way i was rather childish ... the way i spoke , the attitude i have in me , the acts that i do ... thinking back of those kindda embarassing to say . Yet i remember saying others look so childish with those rubbish talks . I didn't realise i was no much difference from them at all .

I guess this habit started since form 2 or something ... Maybe i was around those that i so call "friends" ... Ya... those weren't friends at all ... Yet they were the ones i have back then . At least things started to brighten up ever since i got older , i meet peoples which are meant to be . Those that can be rely on , can be trusted , can be shared with and can be together with .

I thought i was improving every year but when i observe carefully , i think everything was the same all these years ... it never improves at all !!! Not even once !!! There was I trying to cheer myself up while smilling and pretending enjoying all the time ... Silly me , maybe thats why i often ended up in quietness . Maybe that suits me better , at least getting me less trouble also so that those around me didn't notice .

Sometimes as i went out shopping with my parents , i look at those younger than me ... those attitude of theirs . Sometimes i feel disgrace of what they does or what they said . I think i am no different either , always talking all the time maybe i didn't notice only but i am sure i give other bad impressions towards me . Maybe i wasn't wise enough , i didn't thought of that last time ... at least now i know what i am saying ... well hopefully ...

Looking at those really make me feel irritate but sad at the same time . Not knowing any ways except one by drawing others attentions . Whatever that comes out was never thought of , just to entertain listeners . If there is a response he continues if there isn't he quiet awhile and change the topic . They .... i feel like talking to them but sometimes it reflect me back . I wonder am I the same as well ? Is this how the society works nowadays ?

I always think too much ... whether it is a small issue or a big issue ... it doesn't matter i just think a few steps ahead ... ALWAYS ! I wonder why ... aren't we surpose to plan ahead what should we do first because to be honest i hate failure ... not even one failure is accepted for me . But things often goes my way , except a few times but most of the time .... I wonder whether that i think too much , maybe i should do things on intinct , on the first thing that comes into my mind ... Or maybe i wasn't such a good planner after all ...

Maybe that is why people never thought of spoking to me seriusly ... I wonder what do they think of me ... For me i think i am irritating to everyone ... I think i never change at all over the years ... maybe i was convincing myself that i changed abit but in reality i think no change ever occurs ...

Penang TRIP

2010-08-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

Been quite busy lately , just got back from Penang trip with a bunch of my college friends . It was fun but lacking at the same time . I dunno why but i felt these is something missing in our trip , perhaps it is because not many of us could make it ... Still luckily there are only 7 of us not including Roger and Daw Gen , at least the number is plainly suitable for our hotel room . The sleeping places are just nice ~

We stayed 4 days 3 night at Gurney Hotel along Gurney Drive . A 3 star hotel , it was nice , very facilitated , convinient location , nice view , and bla bla bla ~ The first day was free planning , we all the way down from our hotel to the plaza . Crystal got scam for a hair band ~ Suit Yee looking for lens box ~ Met Roger ~ Later on watch a movie " Inception" , quite cool , alot better than i expected . The movie finished around 11 and by the time we walk back its already past midnight added with we all taking turns bathing ... ya it was way past midnight by then .

The next day everyone got up quite late , maybe due to last night delay bathing haha . Roger brought us to had our lunch , by the way we had plain bread and biscuits for breakfast in our room . Order some of Penang popular dishes , got surprise when i saw such a huge plate of rojak . It was nice ~ Thx Roger for bringing us there XDDD

We need to squeeze abit in Roger's car ... had to sit on Katrina legs . Hahaha i hope shes ok besides i am not that heavy ... thats what i think la =.= Sorry Kat if i am abit heavy , i notice u didn't said a word each time we are in the car . Not sure whether is i am heavy or you got not enough of sleep . MORNING !!!! ^^

After a huge meal , we visited the Toy Museum . It was my first time visiting such museum , there were all kinds of toys inside not include those toys la ~ Kindda remind me of my childhood looking at those toys , some i used to have them but now dunno fly to where , some still kept inside my cupboard all these years .

Did some posing with the Stars inside the museum , not bad la everyone look quite alike also hahahaha . Hmm couldn't decide where to head next which leave the only option as going back to our room , happy lor some people can continue naping ^^ Going to beach later during evening so need to recharge energy , phone batteries , camera batteries , and whatever that need to be charge .

Oh ya the hotel !!! We didn't really went back to sleep except one or two , the rest went downstairs to play volleyball , chess , ping pong , taking pictures .

As long as there is a camera , u gotta to keep taking pictures untill the memory goes 0 ^^ After all ... Thats is the purpose for inventing cameras right ???

Roger went back at around 2 or 3 cause he need to buy lunch for his grandmother . We waited him in our hotel and he came to fetched us by evening . The beach we went was located behind a hotel , forget whats the name ady but i am quite sure that i stayed there before ... years ago ...

We had fun at the beach and had our dinner by the beach as well . Luckily for us Roger had 50% voucher for whatever we order at the hotel buffet . The food was fantastic but the atmosphere was funny . Funny people singing songs , lacking of lamp , also Suit yee kena bom hahaha poor suit yee .

The 3rd day , unexpected guest knock on the door at early in the morning . It was Daw Gen !!! Did not expect him to came by so early , everyone was still sleeping . It was his turn to bring us around Penang , firstly he wants to bring us go eat one of the famous cendol in Penang , walk some distance , took a bus arrived at the place . The street was quite old , abit Malacca feel ... For those that doesn't know how Malacca feel it is like Penang feel =p . We had to stand under the scorching sun and eat , it was seriusly dam HOT that day compare to the previous few days we were here . And we have to paid 0.50 sens for each bowl brought into the shop !!! Siao ar !!! Like that also wan earn $$$ !!!

After the cendol , we walk into some malls ... looking at stufts ... brought some ice blender ... visit some unusual shops ... and lastly went to brought ingredients for tonight Barbeque ^^ . Most of the food we brought are not raw like sausage , fish balls , bun and lain lain ~~

Hahaha we go untill we dunno where we are , got lost a few times ... lucky got a kind auntie show us the way back . Back to hotel , wrap those potatoes getting ready for tonight event while wating we took quite alot of pictures, the most i think in this time trip . Unable to post all here , later my blog boom !!! Oh i forgot to mention , we walk throught quite a long long distance from here to there under the hot sun and end up eating kuey teow soup zzz .

Actually while wating for Roger , most of us also don't feel like not going d . Added with the lighting storm outside keep spamming since we got back that evening . But Roger called says he on the way ady somemore all the food ady buy , so no choice all quickly get ready and pergi lor ... We suppose to had our barbeque by the beach we went yesterday thanks to uncertain weather we changed to Roger Ah Gong house . Huge house , so many cars somemore pasti rich gao gao ~~ Thank You Uncle Auntie Roger ~

Then there was Crystal got burned by fire , sinked her leg into people drinking pail zzz . Crystal also de ... dunno how you burn de lor ... where got people barbeque put untill face so near the charcoal de =.= Yiyang buzy barbequing and checking chicken whether still raw or cooked . Nicholas busy peeling potatoes for himself . He finished most of the potatoes we brought =.= .

Alot of laughter that night , something wrong with the food i think . Me , Crystal and Nick laugh none stop over the food . We were planning to deliver to neighbour as well hahahahaha ...

Fourth and Final Day

The last day always is the longest day because you are aware of every minute and second passing by . You are counting and constantly looking at the time to keep in track that you still have the time . Sigh the moment you forgot to look at the time , it suddenly jumps ...

Daw Gen sleep over with us last night , he complained he didnt sleep well because of me .... Whatever la , cannot sleep ur problem la ~ I know i sleep well last night ^^ We went back to Komtar nearby to had dim sum for breakfast follow by a supposely 10 min arrival becomes 30 min arrival to the what what shop , dunno what it calls in english . It was quite cheap , cheapest of all our meals these few days of course . A table full of food with a price of not exceed rm60 .

As it comes down to almost the end of post , it started to lag abit while uploading pictures . At least the 30 min of walking didn't go away waste , we got what we came here for so everybody happy and Daw Gen you have to feel so down about yourself ... People do make mistake ... Where got people memory so perfect untill remember every single thing he or she saw .

We arrived 40 minute earlier at the bus station , you guys all know why isit la ~ We nearly miss the bus again you know , not because we are late but the guy give us the wrong number plate =.=" Lucky we go ask and confirm before it flies off . In the bus , couldn't sleep dunno why , i was quite sleepy when in the taxi but in the bus i was so full of energy ... Chit chatting with crystal and suit yee while everyone in the bus fall asleep ... The trip ends with the arrival at bukit jalil at 7:42 pm . A safe and sound journey . You know sometimes it ain't about how many times you went to that place , i think is with whom you go and how you spent those time that matter most . With this even the most boring place you ever been would turn out to be the BEST PLACE YOU EVER BEEN ...

END OF PENANG TRIP ... 10/8 ~ 14/8

Aaron ~ Crystal ~ Suit Yee ~ Zi Chuen ~ Nicholas ~ Katrina ~ Yi Yang ~ Roger ~ Daw Gen

Together & Destiny

2010-08-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

I do believe that everyone is born with a Destiny , a purpose of coming into this world . Whether it is helping others , studying , giving others hope or even helping an old woman across the street it is your Destiny to do so . No one is born without a purpose in life , its about finding your true self , unleashing your potentials and use what you are given to handle chanllenges of life . Life is like a bridge sometimes stable while sometimes shaky . At least along your path , there are those that you can hold on to ... to help you walk through this bridge .

Sometimes the days just pass day after day without that of what you wishes for . It is not the time yet , just like in the highways you can't expect to have stops every kilometers . But one thing is for sure you know you will reach those stops , it is the matter of time only . It might too long because your destination is futher , your aims are higher , your expectation are beyond . Who says effort always end with empty handed , rewards are given to you but did you realise or figure it out whether that is the reward ?

Sometimes we shouldn't too focus nor over addicted to what we hope for ... until it comes a point where you ignore everything around you , your friends , your family , your love ones ... That is why we nowadays loses friends loses trust having many many thoughts that run in our mind . Try not to focus completely on your last few steps of finishing the path or else it won't even meant a thing when you got there , you won't felt the happiness at all . Do it together , Not Alone because what's the point if you achieve what you want but you got no one to announce to , no one to celebrate with . What is there to be joyfull about ? Finally achieve so what ? You will feel no directions then ...

Why suffer alone ? Why carries all the burden yourself ? Especially when behind you are those you can count on , preparing to lend you a helping hand anytime , ready to concile you when you are sad . Don't always keep it to yourself ... Or else you are hurting those that realise at the same time hurting yourself as well . That is what those pillars are for along the bridge , to support you , to make sure you succeed , to ensure you are not alone and you do not fail . They do care about you , perhaps you didn't realise it , maybe you too focus on your expectation already ...

Enjoy the journey , cherish all the moments you are given to , frame those memories of joy , tie those bonds of friendship , shower love to those that needed ... Life is tough , doing it alone will be suicidal but together ? Thats is the time WHEN AMAZING HAPPENS ...

Ahead

2010-08-01T16:43:00.002+08:00

Finally second semester is over ... Can't wait to sleep through the entire sem break after this tiring short semester . At the same time looking forward to my water baptism and possibly school concert and penang trip . Hopefully my mom allows all of them .

This sem sure pass by fast . I remembered the day of this sem , Mrs Ng gave us essays assignment and enzymes to look after ... And in a blink these due date just pass last week and the finals are next week . Haiz its been a busy sem compared to the first , more videos to do , more assignments , more presentations even though i taking fewer subjects than last sem .

Somethings had been awesome !!! Praise GOD all of our friendship are stornger now plus with more people joining in now ^^ Some left some joined but those that left never had been lesser while those that joined never had been less . Also I'm glad to be much closer to some people now cause the first sem , really didn't talk that much nor knows each other . At least now there are jokes , conversations , laughter and much more .

But i wish somethings would move on smoother ... But nevermind if things are being rushed the outcome won't be that good so i guess i will let it improve bit by bit while hopefully i am able to reason with . It is a great sem , tiring but enjoying . I appreciate those that are in the same groups with me for certain assignments and lab work ... Wen Jun , Welia , Katrina , Nicholas , Sheng , Afzal , Justin , Shine , Jia Yuen , Crystal , Shalee , Yang Jing , Deldri , wad was that two guys name again ??? and i guess thats all ^^ THANK YOU ALL !!!

Birth

2010-07-26T13:28:00.082+08:00

Birth is the sudden opening of a window , and it is God's opinion that the world should go on ...

BIRTH ... A day you always excited about ... Of all the 365 days a year , you definitely won't want to miss your birthday... But for our moms , it could be a half joyfull half painfull day to remembered . A day so rememberence of whether it is good or bad because it is stated the date of you are being BORN , the day you are being sent to the outer world . The day you first step you took into the world , the first breath of oxygen you inhaled , the first moment you captured when you open your eyes ...

23/07/10 ... A one day for someone to remember ... not just the one that is having her birthday ... but also those that celebrate with her ... Everyone work things out and the birthday half surprise party turned out to be a sucess !!! . From the day keeping a secret of where it will held and what to gives her untill the day itself where we held at T.G.I FRIDAY ... And when everyone is together ... the joys the tears whether it is sad or happy ... THESE ARE THE OUTCOME !

Its been i think 6 months plus since I know her ... but still can't really say as fully know her yet ... At least I know sometimes she can be quite quiet while sometimes due to high aurosal can simply hit people during psychology class haha ^^ Oh ya not to forget also ... always drawing penguin on others paper if oppurturnity is given .

Sorry ar , short post but took so long to post . You know la , coputer spoiled then must blog in public , everyone watching very shy shy ~ Haha still , hope that you enjoy your birthday celebration :)

Lastly great to have known you that much in such a short period ... well not exactly hehe ... Still with SINCERELY glad to have you as a friend !!!

Jog For Hope

2010-07-18T14:59:00.000+08:00

After coming back late from yesterday gathering , today got to woke up seriusly early to join "Jog For Hope " event . This is my first time joining this kind of running few killometers run . I woke up at 5.30 hurry get change and went to main campus to meet with Jun they all . Bus came late , surposely depart at 6.30 but end up departing by 7 . While on the way , the bus driver make a few wrong turn but we managed to get there in time .

At 8 , the run is officially announced started and we begun jogging with a total of 1000+ participants ! Nick fly so fast ahead as soon as we started ... Then straight skip all the way untill we finish running , nothing much to say also , just running , nothing unusual happen .

After all the jogging , we came back earlier than expected , we went to receive our certs , goodies bag , some free gift and all this . The expected time for us to finish is 11.00 but we finish it at 9something , so still got plenty of time before the bus arrive( thats what we thought =.=) . Went to shopping mall next to Sri Hartamas College , had breakfast at coffee bean .

After we finish eating is at around 10 , luckly and seriusly lucky that we decided to head back to the college if not we wouldnt have the chance to stop the bus that is leaving as we came out . Phew managed to get onto the bus ... Arrived back at main campus by 10.30 , Jun going back get ready for later gathering , Nick and Kat faster went home to finish their chem essays , as for me ... got to wait untill 1 something only my mum come pick me up . All the college facilities are closed , not much shops are open , got no choice but to stay around in cc for 2 and a half hour . Finally i am being fetched home ... and after resting for awhile decided to sit down and blog and ended up with finishing the last few words of this blog post .

After the run , i realise i better get my right leg to be check or else i can gurantee i won't be doing all this in years to come ...

ADP Ping Pong Tournament

2010-07-13T20:50:00.001+08:00

Today supposely attend talk about drugs at main campus but it didn't took me long to leave the hall . I arrived at around 9++ to meet with everyone , went to had early breakfast . At around 10 , headed to main campus with wen jun and start listening to talk . The talk is quite lenghten as they make everything so longgg , started with 2 songs presented by the music club follow with the official opening of the campaign . That is when people starting moving out , we were planning to leave at 11 but eveyone is moving out one after another . Then there was Mrs Singh going out , asking her students to go out as well so i thought we just follow her signal as well and just slipped through the doors .

Then as we came back , arriving at Taylors ECA Centre everyone is playing ping pong there . Kinnda surprising they will shuff in a ping pong table in such a small place but it fit it quite well . So decided to join in the fun since didn't play some sports for quite some time already . Then we organize our very own ADP PING PONG TOURNAMENT ... Haha eventhough it is illegal , everyone fought hard not just to get first place but to avoid getting last place as well ... Crystal reported that there will be another tournament coming soon ... this time with more candidates from all around ADP , got Taiping la , East Malaysia , Kuantans la , Pahang and where also got , u name it !! So stay tuned untill next time for more live update ^^

Reunion

2010-07-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

Today is friday , college classes as usual from 8 am untill 11 am . Then went back home , had a bath and start packing up stufts because theres a REUNION PARTY today at Xin Huang's Place . He just came back from melbourne after his first sem studying culinary arts there . He think of hosting this party to show some of his skils that he learnt there .

After finish most of the packing and so on , went to LRT station to wait for Deren come and fetch me . He arrived half and hour later ... saying that he is pumping petrol . Next heading to fetch Wai Seng and Shirley , Deren and his mom dont really know how to get to the place . So i get to drive , for the first time without any company . Well at least everything goes on smoothly , nothing happen so i am quite glad about that . In addition Deren's Mom praised me for driving well , haha really give me the confidence to drive alone more frequently now .

While fetching Shirley surprise got another person behind her , didn't saw quite clearly from afar but as i get closer only i realise it is Pauline ... Unexpectedly i thought she not coming , hopefully behind able to sit comfortably . All right , next stop Wai Seng place , doesn't took us long to get there . Forced to make a U turn in a very narrow road , somemore that time school just finish and alot of cars and parents watching zzz .

Finally managed to made the tough turn , now sending Deren's Mom back to their place . After fetching her home , got a call from Khhai Mun saying that he don't have transport to come later . He said he is on the way so we went nearby Lrt station to have some snacks while wating for him . Who Knows .... wating .... wating .... its already 5 ++ !!!! .

At last he arrived , now we heading to the real destination . Accidentally turned into Sedang while going to Kajang , so took us around half and hour to reach Xin Huang's house . We are still the first to arrived ^^ , i guess there is no such thing as punctuality in KL hahaha . Not long later most of the people arrived one after another . And lastly but not least Estee arrived also eventhough she finishes class at 5 something .

Unlucky to phyllis , while on their way entering the guard house their car hit by a sling shot . Leaving behind a crack on the front glass . The girls were so busy chit-chatting as if they haven't seen each other for ages already . The guys at least better , did chat as well but not as busy as the girls ~ And we also help setting up things , doing this and that while we are chatiing . This time it took us much shorther time to set up the fire and everything compare to last year incidents haha , able to filled up our stomarch before the night time .

After the meal everyone is so full , just sits around talks about college bla bla bla and other bla bla bla . And we also took pictures , something that can never left out during a outing or a party .

The guys that turned up , well only one didn't turn up . He was suppose to come but due to some family issue he unable to attend at the last minute . If i was him i would have done the same thing so no need feel bad .

The girls that turned up , i think only half the girls of our class turned up . The rest unable to attend cause of their own reasons , but nevermind there is always NEXT TIME .

Then after leaving some time for our stormach to digest it is time have some dessert . ICE CREAM !!!!!!

After all the food , the guys went out to play basketball ^^ My favourite !!! Everyone also improoved compared to last time , still everyone is deniying never play sports since SPM . I didn't play then true la !!! I dont believe most of them haven't play sports for so many months . After the game , time to watch some LIVE ACTION , FIFA WORLD CUP . An interesting and exciting match of Brazil against Holand , too bad Brazil lost but good effort .

By the time we finish watching its already 12 something , and of the guys still playing football outside despite the late night and everybody is asleep ady . All i can remember is i fell asleep while watching TV ZZZ .

Lost

2010-06-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

I GOT NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING ......

WHAT IS ALL THIS !!!!! THIS IS ALL WRONG !!!!!!!

I'M NOT BEING MYSELF ANYMORE......

SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME ......

BUT I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO SOLVE THE LOST PART OF ME ......

EVEN WHATEVER DECISION I MADE , I DOUBT THEM ALL.......

WHERE HAD MY CONFIDENCE WENT TO ???

OR MAYBE THERE WASN'T ANY SINCE THE VERY BEGINING ......

Being Hit one after another

2010-06-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

Lighting is extremely fast , it comes and goes away just within a second . That is not the end yet , but after a fast and furious strike leaving behind a scar that causes problem . But we didn't realise it untill we heard the sound of the storm . By the time we realises , its already too late because the lighting already hit and run . The scar that left behind causes trouble on everyone around making our life even harder . Lighting doesn't come just once , it comes every once in awhile . Just like our life , obstacles just come one after another . Stacking up highly making our life miserable . It took us time to recover from the damage done but sometimes recoving doesn't goes away in a day or two . Moreover if the previous damage is not repair and another one comes again which mean double the situation being cause . Maybe we should invent something that could block against the strike , even if blocking totally is impossible but at least minimizing is one of our best option . We could invent something to block lighting ; BUT LIFE ??? It goes down ourselves .... and i mean OURSELF ALONE . Its not about the surrounding , its about how tough is your determination to stand against ...